Kwentong MRT at iba pa

babala: ang blog post na ito ay opinion ko lang. pasensya na kung may natamaan, di ko sinasadya. May freedom of expression naman tayo di ba? at saka, blog ko ito. wala ngang nagbabasa or bumibisita sa blog ko na to. Mabuhay ka Pinas!

Proud akong Pinoy ako, pero minsan hindi maiiwasan na magtaka ka, kung bakit may mga taong di marunong umintindi.

Linggo, sa mrt. Kaunti lang naman ang tao, di naman kelangan mag madali. Sa may hagdanan ako galing, samantala ang babaeng nasa likod ko ay sa elevator galing. Kasagsagan nun ng kamakailan lang na pagsabog ng bus sa may Ayala-Edsa. Natural lang na maging alerto ang mga guards ng mga publikong lugar. Matagal ang inspeksyon, at hindi makapag hintay ang babae sa likod ko.  Para pa siyang nagreklamo na bakit ang tagal at ang bagal.

Nung oras na yun, gusto kong sabihin na, “ate, anong gusto mo, makapasok ka agad pero na bomba naman ang sinasakyan mo, o ang makasiguro na ligtas ka.” Slowly but surely. Napa-hay na lang ako.

Kung ako ang tatanungin, mas gugustuhin ko pa na halungkatin ng guard at bomb-sniffing dog ang bag ko para lang makasiguro na ligtas ako.

Sa panahon ngayon, hindi na ko sigurado sa mga tao sa paligid ko. Bago umalis ng bahay nun, sabi ng nanay ko na mag-ingat ako sa pangit at mga kaduda-dudang mukha. Pero hindi sa lahat ng oras dapat ganun. Aminado akong hindi ako maganda, kaya naisip ko na baka ganun din ang tingin  nila saken. Masakit di ba? Kaya mas pipiliin ko pang, halungkatin nila ang bag ko. Ilang segundo or minuto lang ba yun? Hindi tatagal yun ng 3 minuto.

Hindi kagaya ng MRT and Airport na may x-ray scanning machine na makikita nila ang loob ng bag mo, at hindi sila gagamit ng stick na masabi lang na naipasok yun sa bag.

Naisip ko din, na mabuting itaas ang singil sa MRT. Para madagdagan ang tren, at maging kasinghaba na ito ng platform ng bawat istasyon. Kung hahaba ito, malamang ay walang siksikan pag rush hour.

Ang tanong lang, magagawa kaya nila ito?

Isa pang insidente sa MRT. Nag-aabang na ako ng tren sa may Ayala. Hindi naman ganoon kadami ang tao. Pagdating ng tren, bumaba ang madaming turista. Siguro ay sinubukan nilang sumakay ng MRT. Madami silang bumaba. Ang sabi ng isang babae sa likod ko ay, ‘may audition ba ng American Idol dito. Walang American Idol dito’. Pabiro lang naman niyang sinabi yun sa kaibigan niya. Pero dinig naming lahat.

Nakakapagtaka lang na kelangan pa niyang iparinig sa iba. Kahit hindi naintidihan yun nung mga turista, sa tingin ko ay hindi nararapat yun.

Samantalang tayong mga pinoy, pag may nasabi tungkol sa atin ang iba, racist na ang bansag natin sa kanila, at nagagalit tayo.

Ayon sa aking nakausap, tayo daw ang isang numero unong racist sa kapwa tao natin. Tayong mga pinoy, mahilig manlait. Sa damit, sapatos, buhok, kuko, daliri, ngipin, balat at kung anu-ano pa. Tama ba? Nung una, hindi ako sang-ayon pero pag minulat mo ang isipan mo, ang masasabi mo na lang ay tama.

Ako man ay guilty, inaasar ko ang kapatid kong baboy kasi mataba siya. At inaasar niya kong baba, kasi mahaba ang baba ko. O di ba, halimbawa un ng racism. Pag may nakita akong babaeng puno ng tighawat nilalait ko siya.

Kaya dapat ihinto ang ganun kaugalian. Sabi sa BDJ planner ko, “I will always try to focus on people’s good points.” Tama!

Kaya tama na ang negativity, at dapat puro positivity na lang.

Proud pa rin akong Pinoy ako. Aprubado na nga ang petisyon ko papuntang Amerika, pero nagdadalawang isip ako. Mas gusto ko pa rin ang Pilipinas. At Mahal ko ang Pilipinas dahil Pinoy ako. Kung pupunta man ako sa ibang bansa, yun ay dahil nagbabakasyon ako. :)

Sa susunod, ikukwento ko ang mga nakakatawang experiences ko sa MRT.

“Dahil rush hour at siksikan, lahat ng babae nagkakagulo na makapasok sa paparating na tren, di na ko kelangan maglakad, at voila! Nasa loob na ko ng tren. :)”

My Man

Warning! This is cheesy-overload. hahahaha

since valentines day is next monday and our 2nd anniversary is on next sunday, i thought that i might blogged something about my boyfriend. i haven't blogged about him after the 'it striked me...finally' and 'the man'. I tried writing it like a love story or a biography, but i was lazy in doing that because i'm at work and i just cant think. don't ask me why.

let's start from the beginning.

I'm Zeny Diana, i was in my 6th year in college. I am a no-boyfriend-since-birth woman. hahaha. so that makes me a hopeless romantic woman. I have a huge crush in one of my schoolmates and was hoping we could be friends, but scrap that out. he doesn't like me. an acquaintance told me likes pretty girls with curly hair...and my hair is a freakin' thick wavy hair. so yeah, im dump.

anyway, it was our ojt days at that time. we go to different clinics and farms to learn and gain experiences that we can use in the future. we're done in 3 clinics for small animal practice and 1 large animal practice for equine. the next farm is the farm that, how will i say it, it's nice but i don't like it. we will stay there for weeks.

do we have a choice. by the way, we are a group of four. they treat us like shit. we sleep in dungeon-like room. it's dirty and smelly. and weird. But little did i know, that in that place i will meet the man i've been waiting for 8 years of my life (since i was eighteen, because if i say 'i've-been-waiting-for-all-my-life' is not real...since i we're a fetus?? is it a joke?).

our duty is from tuesday to saturday because monday is university day meaning we have classes.

on monday morning before going to school, i packed my stuffs. clothes, check; sleeping mattress, check; blanket, check; slippers, check; bathroom needs, check; whatever...check!

while in the car, i feel its the worst day of my life. just hearing stories from my other classmates, makes things worse. finally i arrived in front of my classmates apartment. I just left all my things in their apartment and headed to our class. our class at that time is upto 12pm only. to make it short, we ate our lunch, slept in the apartment, drank a shot glass of gran matador, and sleep again, took a bath and went to the grocery to buy food and etc. then went back to the apartment to get our stuffs, and i wore my sleeping wear already and headed to the farm.

we arrived there around 8pm. when we entered the farm, i saw him already, but i was not in the mood to look at everybody or stay there for long, or whatever. we took a bath again (biosecurity) and slept. we have to be in the farm by 6:30 am.

we woke up around 4:30 am to eat breakfast and prepare. at exactly 6:30am we went inside the farm. there i saw him. but it wasn't a love-at-first sight thing. i thought he was one of the workers in the farm. he was wearing ragged clothes, but i told myself he was cute.

while cleaning the pig sty, the supervisor suddenly called me because i will castrate the piglets. she said im with someone. i asked who, and she said the other students. when we arrived at the pen, there i saw him, waiting.

at first, both of us we're not talking. until he breaks his silence and asks me some questions and my name of course. he's nice. i liked him on that week, but i feel he doesn't like me. one week is over. the second week, was still the same, except that he asked for my number. two weeks is over.

to be continued... hahaha.

(i've got to get ready to go home.)

Feb 13, 2011

After he got my number, I think he was disappointed. Why? because we use different networks. During that time, unlimited calls and texts boomed. So if we use different networks, the messages we're limited. One of his friends uses globe, so thats how he texted me. After two weeks, we returned to our normal lives. school, ojt's etc. i thought he wouldn't text me again, but he did. he changed his network. hahahahaha. sweet no? nagulat talaga ako.

to sum it up, we became "textmates". araw araw text kung text. :) nung time na yun hindi ko alam kung nanliligaw siya or what. until, one day, i texted him. i told him frankly, "nanliligaw ka ba?" nakalimutan ko na yung sagot nya. basta ang sabi niya "pwede ba?" without hesitation, i said YES! pero sa isip-isip ko, gusto ko na siya. pero sige try natin kung pano siya manligaw.

and because of the distance between us, i live in QC and he lives in bulacan plus there's so much to do in school, nanligaw na lang siya thru call and text. you may think, its pathetic, or cheap, or whatever, but for me, its genuine. i really like him, from the first encounter, but i wouldn't call it love at first sight.

i was in bataan having fun with friends. he texted me the three words, that all girls would love to hear from someone who makes their hearts beat faster, I LOVE YOU! then he called, and said it again... and yes, i said I LOVE YOU TOO!

We've only known each other for a month, and technically he just courted me for 2 weeks. hahahaha. and now we're going on 2...TWO YEARS! and in those days, i can say that, I LOVE HIM and i know the he loves me too. i know, that God gave him to me. he's not really my dream guy, he's actually the opposite, but for me HE's THE ONE! for real!

being with him is the happiest day of my life. I'm lucky to have him, as a friend, bestfriend and boyfriend, and someday my husband! hahahahaha.

oopps! i forgot to introduce him.

I'd like you to meet: Delson Delos Santos.

I LOVE YOU SWEETNESS! HAPPY VALENTINES AND HAPPY 2ND ANNIVERSARY! :)

queso!

My 25th birthday...

with family and boyfriend! somewhere in MOA last 10-24-2010

Official

last time I blogged about my mind being torn to resigning or just take a leave. guess what? I RESIGNED! haha. and I'm officially outta here by February 28.

the feeling is a mixture of sadness and yeheys, but there is definitely no regrets.

i know i made the right decision.

so yeah! hello student world again! :)

what now?

i was typing from google "the best way to resign", and came across  "How to Resign from Jobs" (http://www.ehow.com/how-to_4845410_resign-from-jobs.html). this part i find interesting:

Those who resign from their jobs usually fall into one of two categories.

* You're changing your career path. You want to change your job completely (say, from a paralegal to a stand-up comic).

* You're escaping an unhappy environment. This can be anything from an insensitive boss to poor advancement opportunities to just not liking the commute. Sometimes people in this situation aren't particularly looking for a new job, but they receive an offer from a different company that can give them a better deal (be it through salary, benefits, more interesting tasks or some other perk)

you see, i haven't filed or submitted a resignation letter to my boss, because she hates it when she receives one. especially now that one-by-one her employees are starting to go...somewhere. so when i talked to her about leaving the company because i need to study for 5 months, we had an agreement that she will allow me to have an indefinite leave, since she really knew what i'm talking about. i don't know if i made the right decision. since, at that time...my brain isn't working normally. i am stressed of the travelling (the mrt part i think), im not enjoying what i'm doing (i'm not a don't belong here, really for heaven's sake), but at the same time i needed money. I'm not HAPPY in short.

i fall in both categories.

i want to change my career path because i realized what i really wanted to do. that this is only a stop-over. an experience for me to find where my happiness is and a realization that i should just stick to my dreams, fulfill it and live it.

the second category, said it all. i think this is an unhappy environment for me. it's like i'm lost and found this environment and i'm trying to be like them. i am a veterinarian, but i'm working with teachers. though i wanted to teach somehow, i just don't fit. the puzzle pieces doesn't fit. and yes, the commute. i hate it now unlike before. i was excited to ride the mrt before because it was my first time...but now, i hate it. hahahaha. everyday i have to be squished just to get my bag inspected by a guard who will just look inside for 1 second, and i stayed on the line for nearly 30 mins., lastly the train is always JAMPACKED! like sardines...not to mention that the hair of the girl in front of me, is on my face already. its soooo stressful.

i'm exhausted. tired. emotionally...stressed? i totally needed a break.

going back to the verbal agreement we had, i will have my 6 months "vacation" (without pay), and i have to return back by august.

by that time, i still don't know. but definitely...i wanted a change.

i suck when it comes to decision making. i wanted to resign...but...

see i can't decide.

this is the part of the article that struck me:

2. Counteroffers. It is likely that your boss will accept your resignation in a calm and professional manner. He may even try to keep you around with an attractive counteroffer. Our advice: Turn it down. It doesn't matter how good it is; chances are, it will hurt you in the long run. In the eyes of the company, the fact that you offered a resignation makes you a disloyal employee. Should any cuts need to be made, your name will likely be at the top of the list. Accepting a counteroffer also makes you appear indecisive. It doesn't help your reputation with the company you were planning to go to, either.

Read more: Give Your Oral and Written Resignation http://www.ehow.com/how-to_4845410_2_resign-from-jobs.html#ixzz1CDuygupF

what? they offered me a job after august. i can come back after being out for 6 months (at the back of my mind, i don't want to go back). is that a counteroffers?


now it made me realized, that i should have turn it down. is it too late? i will be leaving by the end of february.
maybe i should pass a resignation letter. the question is when?


let's find out by August.

During the Holidays!

how do you feel today?

happy new year everyone!

i did enjoy my 2 weeks vacation from work. for 8 months, my work is monotonous, and i'm just so tired and bored and exhausted... (i go to work, sit down, open my laptop, type something, do nothing, eat lunch, then again and again and again. its so boring.

so now, im doing it again. geez. cant wait for march to come, wherein i will leave this place and make a decision. it would be the start of something new and a whole new "turning-point" for me.

i just don't know what to write.

this is how i feel today? bored and i cannot wait to leave. :(

will post our christmas and new year celebrations. =)

not happy anymore!

ok. so maybe i'm just ranting, but i'm going to say this anyway.

I'M NOT HAPPY ANYMORE!

where?

My WORK!

is it because of what I do? or the PEOPLE!

i have to say, BOTH!

their unbelievable!

I "feel" I don't have freedom at all!

Anyway, their sosyal kasi noh! you know i'm from La Salle kasi eh. Ooops... Oh I just hate it!

(I'm not generalizing all La Sallian students, there's just one here thats I don't know. Btw, I also studied in one of the La Sallian schools.)

Another thing, I know I really don't belong here because I'm not a teacher...but I've got brains. I know what I'm doing.

If I'm going to be a full pledged teacher, I want to teach to a school where freedom is expressed. Or maybe, I wont be a teacher... can i just resign after I get my 13th month pay and salary?

=(