i sound sooOo pathetic. yesterday wasnt a good day for me. though i am happy that day. weird?! yeah i know.
i think my heart's broken. its aching. i need a cardiotonic drug. hahaha..thats over reacting.
yeah its aching. i always sleep and reading and eating. i ate alone at mcdonalds yesterday. while texting jillian and telling her how i feel. and she understands cause she's feeling the same way too. i mean she have felt it. haha
yes its still aching. but im trying to be ok. i have to accept it. i have to, like i have another choice. :(
yes i am HEARTBROKEN. and it sucks! T.T no im not crying, im just sad.:-(
Dec 16, 2006
Dec 10, 2006
Minalas Kami
yesterday, we celebrated the anniversary of our organization. it was held in Batangas. it was such a very stressful day.
all members coming decided to meet in school at 11 am. we all thought that we're gonna leave at 11 am since we are only ten who will go. unfortunately we had a problem... there was no driver to drive the jeep we borrowed. until the bf of our sis becomes the driver. yehey? no. we left school around 2:30.
we decided to take the route of EDSA since we will pick up 3 of our brods at the mrt station in guadalupe. but it was freaking traffic. since its saturday, all human beings were outside. when were in robinsons galleria the driver asked me if we should take the flyover or not. i said yes will take the flyover. but i am soooo stupid i forgot that there are 2 flyovers: one is going to Taytay and the other is way going to edsa. we went to the flyover going to Taytay. how frustrating was that?! and then i was traffic. its like we've spent 2 hours in ortigas. shit!
when we've finally surpassed the traffics, we've finally picked up our 3 brods. but thats not the end of our miserable journey. when we were in, i think ayala, the CLUTCH of our jeep just gave up. imagine that...in the highway the clutch gave up. we were all like, WHAT?! then after a few minutes a towing truck came and towed our jeep.
were all students. and we dont have that much money. and we paid the towing company 2500. then the company were suggesting they will fix the clutch. but again an additional payment was needed. then they tried to buy some parts but they couldnt find something. we stayed in the autoshop for like 4 hours, i think. we were all hungry.
then weve decided that we will just commute and some of us will stay until the owner came. then we walked from magallanes to buendia!!! finally, we rented a van. and the trip goes on. we arrived at the place 12:30am!!! we were so hungry. and we slept 3am...
it was raining hard and its cold! we did enjoy some parts of the occassion but not that enjoyable. hehe:D and it doesnt end there. something miserable happened on our way back to manila. but i will not tell it since its very humiliating and confidential. ;-)
all members coming decided to meet in school at 11 am. we all thought that we're gonna leave at 11 am since we are only ten who will go. unfortunately we had a problem... there was no driver to drive the jeep we borrowed. until the bf of our sis becomes the driver. yehey? no. we left school around 2:30.
we decided to take the route of EDSA since we will pick up 3 of our brods at the mrt station in guadalupe. but it was freaking traffic. since its saturday, all human beings were outside. when were in robinsons galleria the driver asked me if we should take the flyover or not. i said yes will take the flyover. but i am soooo stupid i forgot that there are 2 flyovers: one is going to Taytay and the other is way going to edsa. we went to the flyover going to Taytay. how frustrating was that?! and then i was traffic. its like we've spent 2 hours in ortigas. shit!
when we've finally surpassed the traffics, we've finally picked up our 3 brods. but thats not the end of our miserable journey. when we were in, i think ayala, the CLUTCH of our jeep just gave up. imagine that...in the highway the clutch gave up. we were all like, WHAT?! then after a few minutes a towing truck came and towed our jeep.
were all students. and we dont have that much money. and we paid the towing company 2500. then the company were suggesting they will fix the clutch. but again an additional payment was needed. then they tried to buy some parts but they couldnt find something. we stayed in the autoshop for like 4 hours, i think. we were all hungry.
then weve decided that we will just commute and some of us will stay until the owner came. then we walked from magallanes to buendia!!! finally, we rented a van. and the trip goes on. we arrived at the place 12:30am!!! we were so hungry. and we slept 3am...
it was raining hard and its cold! we did enjoy some parts of the occassion but not that enjoyable. hehe:D and it doesnt end there. something miserable happened on our way back to manila. but i will not tell it since its very humiliating and confidential. ;-)
Dec 7, 2006
im currently depressed and in love ^.^
yehey!!! we have no classes tomorrow. :D
im depressed. it sucks and ive felt really stupid! no, yes i am stupid that day! we had our prelim exam in pharmacology 2 yesterday. i failed. i didnt answer 20 pts of the exam. blanko ako sa test 2. as in walang sagot pati sa essay. i didnt study!!! T.T ugh!!!! i dont want to talk about it.
in love. i dont know what im feeling right now. its weird. i like someone when i shouldnt. actually may gusto talaga ako before, pinapangarap nga eh. kaso nung nakilala ko ung isa, parang siya ang gusto ko. ewan. hindi nga to dapat maramdaman. sounds corny but this is true, masasaktan lang ako. in the event that he'd find someone. i secretly like him. only my highschool friends knows my feeling about him. at kailangan kong handain ang sarili ko sa mga susunod na mga mangyayari. for now, he makes me smile whenever i see him. hahaha:D
next week will be our prelim. i have to study hard! on saturday we will go to batangas to celebrate the anniversary of our organization.
im depressed. it sucks and ive felt really stupid! no, yes i am stupid that day! we had our prelim exam in pharmacology 2 yesterday. i failed. i didnt answer 20 pts of the exam. blanko ako sa test 2. as in walang sagot pati sa essay. i didnt study!!! T.T ugh!!!! i dont want to talk about it.
in love. i dont know what im feeling right now. its weird. i like someone when i shouldnt. actually may gusto talaga ako before, pinapangarap nga eh. kaso nung nakilala ko ung isa, parang siya ang gusto ko. ewan. hindi nga to dapat maramdaman. sounds corny but this is true, masasaktan lang ako. in the event that he'd find someone. i secretly like him. only my highschool friends knows my feeling about him. at kailangan kong handain ang sarili ko sa mga susunod na mga mangyayari. for now, he makes me smile whenever i see him. hahaha:D
next week will be our prelim. i have to study hard! on saturday we will go to batangas to celebrate the anniversary of our organization.
Oct 4, 2006
wala akong maisip...
tagalog ang sulatin na ito. hehe:)
Bagyong Milenyo
grabe ang nagdaang bagyo. di namin ramdam ang lakas ng hangin sa bahay namin dahil napapagitnaan ito ng dalawang malalaki at nagtataasang bahay. pinagmamasdan lang namin ang puno ni "tatang" sa tapat.
umaga palang wala ng kuryente. Asar! pero suspendido ang klase. Yehey! Pero badtrip. wala kaming magawa. de-kuryente pa ang kalan namin kaya di kami makaluto. kaya ang solusyon namin, MCDO!!!
nung araw na yun, lahat ata ng tao nasa mga kainan. mukha na nga kaming mcdo. kung nag-sara na ang mcdo, jollibee naman. ang aga ko pa matulog ng mga araw na yun. pagkatapos magligpit ng kinainan, tulog. konting chika tapos pikit na ang mata ko. at gising na ko 6:30 pa lang ng umaga. nagwalis pa nga ako ng mga dahon.
3 araw kaming walang kuryente. lagi kaming nakatunganga. napabili tuloy ang nanay ko ng ihawan. at de-uling kaming nagluto.
sabado ng gabi, sa wakas may ilaw na ulit.:)
grabe ang naging pinsala. sira ang mga puno. billboards. bubongs (what a word). poste. at iba pa.
sa bahay namin sa Laguna, hanggang ngayon wla pa ring kuryente. dahil sa posteng bumagsak. kuwawa naman ang aso ko dun. :(
Inuman
ngayong araw na to, nag-inuman at videoke sessions na naman kami. wala lang masaya lang ako.
dati ayoko ng beer, nakakasuka. pero tama ang sabi ng kaibigan ko sa uste, habang tumatagal sumasarap. hehe:) awa ng Diyos, hindi ako na-lasing. ;p
hanggang dito na lang. may gagawin pa pala akong assignments. (ows?!)
tagalog ang sulatin na ito. hehe:)
Bagyong Milenyo
grabe ang nagdaang bagyo. di namin ramdam ang lakas ng hangin sa bahay namin dahil napapagitnaan ito ng dalawang malalaki at nagtataasang bahay. pinagmamasdan lang namin ang puno ni "tatang" sa tapat.
umaga palang wala ng kuryente. Asar! pero suspendido ang klase. Yehey! Pero badtrip. wala kaming magawa. de-kuryente pa ang kalan namin kaya di kami makaluto. kaya ang solusyon namin, MCDO!!!
nung araw na yun, lahat ata ng tao nasa mga kainan. mukha na nga kaming mcdo. kung nag-sara na ang mcdo, jollibee naman. ang aga ko pa matulog ng mga araw na yun. pagkatapos magligpit ng kinainan, tulog. konting chika tapos pikit na ang mata ko. at gising na ko 6:30 pa lang ng umaga. nagwalis pa nga ako ng mga dahon.
3 araw kaming walang kuryente. lagi kaming nakatunganga. napabili tuloy ang nanay ko ng ihawan. at de-uling kaming nagluto.
sabado ng gabi, sa wakas may ilaw na ulit.:)
grabe ang naging pinsala. sira ang mga puno. billboards. bubongs (what a word). poste. at iba pa.
sa bahay namin sa Laguna, hanggang ngayon wla pa ring kuryente. dahil sa posteng bumagsak. kuwawa naman ang aso ko dun. :(
Inuman
ngayong araw na to, nag-inuman at videoke sessions na naman kami. wala lang masaya lang ako.
dati ayoko ng beer, nakakasuka. pero tama ang sabi ng kaibigan ko sa uste, habang tumatagal sumasarap. hehe:) awa ng Diyos, hindi ako na-lasing. ;p
hanggang dito na lang. may gagawin pa pala akong assignments. (ows?!)
Sep 20, 2006
rice and water
last tuesday, i was depressed. thats not the word exactly, more like dismayado. first i dont know if i was late or absent in our pharmacology lab. once our prof checked the attendance and youre not there, your absent, even if you are late. but then i came, i was breathing hard, since i ran from the ground floor up to the 7th flr. i was catching my breath. then, we had these exercise. we have to inject a dextrose to an emaciated dog. the problem was, the dog wasnt cooperating. it sucks. i know she's scared. she dont know any of us in the group. we even dont own the dog. she was jumping over the surgical table. we're trying to restrain her for 2 1/2 hours. until doc nicolas call it off. since we also know the dog was really stressed and dehydrated. we returned it to the owner, who is the guard at the front gate of school. then we just watched at the other groups with their dogs that was behaving properly. geez.
after that, i ate like 2 1/2 cups of rice. and drank 3 galsses of water, one bottle of softdrinks. i was really tired. and it was also hot in the afternoon.
good thing my friends decided we go videoke. hehe:) our way of bonding, tsismisan, and removing stress. haha:)
last tuesday, i was depressed. thats not the word exactly, more like dismayado. first i dont know if i was late or absent in our pharmacology lab. once our prof checked the attendance and youre not there, your absent, even if you are late. but then i came, i was breathing hard, since i ran from the ground floor up to the 7th flr. i was catching my breath. then, we had these exercise. we have to inject a dextrose to an emaciated dog. the problem was, the dog wasnt cooperating. it sucks. i know she's scared. she dont know any of us in the group. we even dont own the dog. she was jumping over the surgical table. we're trying to restrain her for 2 1/2 hours. until doc nicolas call it off. since we also know the dog was really stressed and dehydrated. we returned it to the owner, who is the guard at the front gate of school. then we just watched at the other groups with their dogs that was behaving properly. geez.
after that, i ate like 2 1/2 cups of rice. and drank 3 galsses of water, one bottle of softdrinks. i was really tired. and it was also hot in the afternoon.
good thing my friends decided we go videoke. hehe:) our way of bonding, tsismisan, and removing stress. haha:)
Sep 7, 2006
hell week...
well its our midterms this week and gawd i need some sleep.
monday- its still a regular day for school. and we (my partner and i) won a PVET in our physiology class. yehey! its an achievement for me. haha:) but that day was still oh soo tiring. i left school at 4.30 or 5 and arrived home at 6. our exam the next day was pharmacology and ruminant.
tuesday- it sucks! i concentrated on pharma not really studying in ruminant...and i think..no wait, i really failed! i couldnt answer much of the questions. :(
wednesday- our exam was physiology and pathology. it was disappointing. i slept last tueday night around 2:30 am already and woke up around 5:30 because i was reading 6 chapters of a book. then during the exam, i got mental blocked with the questions, and couldnt answer much. after the exam on physio, i was really sleepy and tired. good thing our exam on patho starts at 3, so we can still review. our exam in patho was more of pictures and laboratory slides. i wrote alot of answers on that exam, but wasnt sure if its correct. :)
thursday- today our exam was helminthology (worms) and equine management. supposedly our exam on helminth would be yesterday, but our prof moved it and our equine should start at 3 but was moved to 1. its sucks on the part of the equine. yung mga inaral ko, konti lang ang lumabas. asar talaga. in short i failed, again.
tomorrow will be our exam on physio lab, myco and proto. if you could just see my face now, its horrible. i got huge eyebugs and pimples. this week was really stressful. -->it sucks on that day. i woke up around 7:30 am already and the exam starts at 8. so i jumped out of bed, i even asked myself if i should take a bath or wag na lang, but then i looked horrible so i took a bathe. then i've decided i will ride a taxi. good thing the fare was exactly 100. the bad news, i failed the exam. :(
despite of this stress, i am happy. maybe because of him. haha:) everytime i see, he makes me smile hindi lang smile, tawa pa. i cant take off my eyes from him. i always wanted to see him. kaya nga masaya ako tuwing exam kasi nakakatabi ko siya. sana, pumasa kami pareho. :)
got to go. i still need to study and review.
well its our midterms this week and gawd i need some sleep.
monday- its still a regular day for school. and we (my partner and i) won a PVET in our physiology class. yehey! its an achievement for me. haha:) but that day was still oh soo tiring. i left school at 4.30 or 5 and arrived home at 6. our exam the next day was pharmacology and ruminant.
tuesday- it sucks! i concentrated on pharma not really studying in ruminant...and i think..no wait, i really failed! i couldnt answer much of the questions. :(
wednesday- our exam was physiology and pathology. it was disappointing. i slept last tueday night around 2:30 am already and woke up around 5:30 because i was reading 6 chapters of a book. then during the exam, i got mental blocked with the questions, and couldnt answer much. after the exam on physio, i was really sleepy and tired. good thing our exam on patho starts at 3, so we can still review. our exam in patho was more of pictures and laboratory slides. i wrote alot of answers on that exam, but wasnt sure if its correct. :)
thursday- today our exam was helminthology (worms) and equine management. supposedly our exam on helminth would be yesterday, but our prof moved it and our equine should start at 3 but was moved to 1. its sucks on the part of the equine. yung mga inaral ko, konti lang ang lumabas. asar talaga. in short i failed, again.
tomorrow will be our exam on physio lab, myco and proto. if you could just see my face now, its horrible. i got huge eyebugs and pimples. this week was really stressful. -->it sucks on that day. i woke up around 7:30 am already and the exam starts at 8. so i jumped out of bed, i even asked myself if i should take a bath or wag na lang, but then i looked horrible so i took a bathe. then i've decided i will ride a taxi. good thing the fare was exactly 100. the bad news, i failed the exam. :(
despite of this stress, i am happy. maybe because of him. haha:) everytime i see, he makes me smile hindi lang smile, tawa pa. i cant take off my eyes from him. i always wanted to see him. kaya nga masaya ako tuwing exam kasi nakakatabi ko siya. sana, pumasa kami pareho. :)
got to go. i still need to study and review.
Aug 20, 2006
different
i seemed to be different in our family. it sucks...when all the family members are smart.
our mom always expect us to get high grades and it seems that, i think, i disappoint her. it started when i was young. in gradeschool. im not good, i guess im just average. i was always in the 3rd section and when i was in grade 6 i was at the 2nd to the last section, while my brother was always in the highest or A section. my brother and younger sister always got alot of recognition, while me, i was invisible.
in highschool, nothing had change. i still get low grades. my highest grade was 89 in chem and lowest was 77 filipino. of course my mom was disappointed. filipino lang bagsak ka pa. ano ka ba? Lebanese? while my sister was in the top 10 always gets recognition etc..blah blah blah..not until 4th yr highschool that i guess my family, though they didnt said it i can feel it, expected so much. i wanted to be a veterinarian since 1st yr highschool, and my mom wanted me to go to UP. like nobody wants to go there, everyone dreams to enter UP. who doesnt?
and yes, i disappoint her again. i didnt make it. knowing my mom, she's close to being a perfectionist. not just that my mom graduated from UP and also my brother.
i dont know what to say next...this was a draft, so i forgot everything that ive typed here. :)
i seemed to be different in our family. it sucks...when all the family members are smart.
our mom always expect us to get high grades and it seems that, i think, i disappoint her. it started when i was young. in gradeschool. im not good, i guess im just average. i was always in the 3rd section and when i was in grade 6 i was at the 2nd to the last section, while my brother was always in the highest or A section. my brother and younger sister always got alot of recognition, while me, i was invisible.
in highschool, nothing had change. i still get low grades. my highest grade was 89 in chem and lowest was 77 filipino. of course my mom was disappointed. filipino lang bagsak ka pa. ano ka ba? Lebanese? while my sister was in the top 10 always gets recognition etc..blah blah blah..not until 4th yr highschool that i guess my family, though they didnt said it i can feel it, expected so much. i wanted to be a veterinarian since 1st yr highschool, and my mom wanted me to go to UP. like nobody wants to go there, everyone dreams to enter UP. who doesnt?
and yes, i disappoint her again. i didnt make it. knowing my mom, she's close to being a perfectionist. not just that my mom graduated from UP and also my brother.
i dont know what to say next...this was a draft, so i forgot everything that ive typed here. :)
Aug 16, 2006
...blank... (magulo ang entry)
we dont have classes yesterday and today. yehey!!! i really dont know whats the reason, but thats great. since i have an exam tomorrow, i can study. err, later maybe.
so whats keeping me busy in the past weeks...
first: last aug 2 i finally presented myself in an organization at school. i was really nervous. and i even felt stupid answering their questions. but i can do it. its not yet over, but i can make it. im stronger that before. sounds cliche. hehe:)
i wasnt happy last week and this week, maybe because i didnt see HIM for 8 days. tsk tsk tsk... i even dont know why i liked that guy. but everytime i see him, masaya ako. i even tried to talk to him but what i said was really stupid. haha:) he seems mayabang, no mayabang talaga siya. akala mo kung sinong gwapo...hindi naman. macho lang siya pero hindi. yuck!
midterms is finally coming..and i brought 2 i-on and 3 lipovitan ira for the whole exam week. to keep me alive since i have my period now. it sucks really!
yesterday was the first time my brother received his first sweldo. haha..it was really fun coz he's really excited. he gave all his money to our mom...aaww..
since the Mayon Volcano will erupt again anytime soon...look at this picture :
the eruption has become a tourist destination. my mom went to bicol last last week. wow..its really amazing. the wonders the of the earth.
tomorrow is our exam in pharma lec..wish me luck..i failed last prelim so i have to pass the midterms..:)
and i hope to see HIM. for inspirations sake!
we dont have classes yesterday and today. yehey!!! i really dont know whats the reason, but thats great. since i have an exam tomorrow, i can study. err, later maybe.
so whats keeping me busy in the past weeks...
first: last aug 2 i finally presented myself in an organization at school. i was really nervous. and i even felt stupid answering their questions. but i can do it. its not yet over, but i can make it. im stronger that before. sounds cliche. hehe:)
i wasnt happy last week and this week, maybe because i didnt see HIM for 8 days. tsk tsk tsk... i even dont know why i liked that guy. but everytime i see him, masaya ako. i even tried to talk to him but what i said was really stupid. haha:) he seems mayabang, no mayabang talaga siya. akala mo kung sinong gwapo...hindi naman. macho lang siya pero hindi. yuck!
midterms is finally coming..and i brought 2 i-on and 3 lipovitan ira for the whole exam week. to keep me alive since i have my period now. it sucks really!
yesterday was the first time my brother received his first sweldo. haha..it was really fun coz he's really excited. he gave all his money to our mom...aaww..
since the Mayon Volcano will erupt again anytime soon...look at this picture :
the eruption has become a tourist destination. my mom went to bicol last last week. wow..its really amazing. the wonders the of the earth.tomorrow is our exam in pharma lec..wish me luck..i failed last prelim so i have to pass the midterms..:)
and i hope to see HIM. for inspirations sake!
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