State of Emergency. Proclamtion no. 1017???

last night, the DepEd and CHED cancelled all classes for all students TODAY! i wasnt really happy about it. not that i like school, but because at the end of the semester tatarantahin kami ng mga profs. and i still need to finish one experiment for out bacteriology lab class. my friend texted me this morning that she's really happy that there are no classes. yeah right!

last friday feb 24, 2006. we dont have our class because all our profs were in baguio having a seminar about animal welfare(?). not until i received a text from my mom saying that if i could wait for my sister because there were no classes. my mom called my sister and told her that there are no classes in the college level. i didnt care why nor did i ask. i opened the tv and there were news everywhere.

then there it was, the PRESIDENT OF THE RP stating that we are under the STATE OF EMERGENCY, proclamation 1017. sounds like martial law. my initial reaction was bakit? anong meron? ano ng nangyayari sa mundo? este pilipinas lang pala. my brother told me: ano ka ba? may coup de'tat na. magugunaw na ang mundo. that was a joke actually.

i thought they were celebrating the anniversary of EDSA. and i just hate whats happening. i think they're using the people power for their own sakes. its not people power anymore. not everyone is participating. my mom was an activist and she was in people power 1, but now i guess she's tired. she even thinks that Pres. Arroyo should stay. not that she likes her, pero kahit naman sino ang iuupo mo sa posisyon na yan ganun pa din ang pilipinas, 3rd world country pa din tayo. pag umalis si Gloria, di naman tayo agad aayos/uunlad eh. syempre may mga stages pa yan. stages of development.

hanggang ngayon, hindi pa na-li-lift ung State of Emergency. so we are still under the state of emergency.

i understand those people who wants a change. sino ba ang ayaw maging maayos ang buhay? ang kumain 3 beses sa isang araw? ang mabili lahat ng kailangan? ang yumaman? syempre wala. lahat tayo may gusto.

bakit ba hindi na lang tayo magtulungan?

minsan nakakainis na, nakakasawa na, nakakahiya na.

trying to find myself.

last monday, my mom received an email. saying she was accepted to work in NY. yes New York and she's bringing us. i am happy until now. i just cant wait.

im going there to... i guess find myself. find my true happiness. right now im just confused about some personal things. i feel so bad. i am such a loser. i just wish im invincible. i hate myself at this very moment while typing.

im having mixed emotions. i want to bring einstein (white mice), cybie and reeyan (hamster) to NY.

i am shutting down. i just want to be alone.