different

i seemed to be different in our family. it sucks...when all the family members are smart.

our mom always expect us to get high grades and it seems that, i think, i disappoint her. it started when i was young. in gradeschool. im not good, i guess im just average. i was always in the 3rd section and when i was in grade 6 i was at the 2nd to the last section, while my brother was always in the highest or A section. my brother and younger sister always got alot of recognition, while me, i was invisible.

in highschool, nothing had change. i still get low grades. my highest grade was 89 in chem and lowest was 77 filipino. of course my mom was disappointed. filipino lang bagsak ka pa. ano ka ba? Lebanese? while my sister was in the top 10 always gets recognition etc..blah blah blah..not until 4th yr highschool that i guess my family, though they didnt said it i can feel it, expected so much. i wanted to be a veterinarian since 1st yr highschool, and my mom wanted me to go to UP. like nobody wants to go there, everyone dreams to enter UP. who doesnt?

and yes, i disappoint her again. i didnt make it. knowing my mom, she's close to being a perfectionist. not just that my mom graduated from UP and also my brother.

i dont know what to say next...this was a draft, so i forgot everything that ive typed here. :)

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we dont have classes yesterday and today. yehey!!! i really dont know whats the reason, but thats great. since i have an exam tomorrow, i can study. err, later maybe.

so whats keeping me busy in the past weeks...

first: last aug 2 i finally presented myself in an organization at school. i was really nervous. and i even felt stupid answering their questions. but i can do it. its not yet over, but i can make it. im stronger that before. sounds cliche. hehe:)

i wasnt happy last week and this week, maybe because i didnt see HIM for 8 days. tsk tsk tsk... i even dont know why i liked that guy. but everytime i see him, masaya ako. i even tried to talk to him but what i said was really stupid. haha:) he seems mayabang, no mayabang talaga siya. akala mo kung sinong gwapo...hindi naman. macho lang siya pero hindi. yuck!

midterms is finally coming..and i brought 2 i-on and 3 lipovitan ira for the whole exam week. to keep me alive since i have my period now. it sucks really!

yesterday was the first time my brother received his first sweldo. haha..it was really fun coz he's really excited. he gave all his money to our mom...aaww..

since the Mayon Volcano will erupt again anytime soon...look at this picture : the eruption has become a tourist destination. my mom went to bicol last last week. wow..its really amazing. the wonders the of the earth.

tomorrow is our exam in pharma lec..wish me luck..i failed last prelim so i have to pass the midterms..:)

and i hope to see HIM. for inspirations sake!