different

i seemed to be different in our family. it sucks...when all the family members are smart.

our mom always expect us to get high grades and it seems that, i think, i disappoint her. it started when i was young. in gradeschool. im not good, i guess im just average. i was always in the 3rd section and when i was in grade 6 i was at the 2nd to the last section, while my brother was always in the highest or A section. my brother and younger sister always got alot of recognition, while me, i was invisible.

in highschool, nothing had change. i still get low grades. my highest grade was 89 in chem and lowest was 77 filipino. of course my mom was disappointed. filipino lang bagsak ka pa. ano ka ba? Lebanese? while my sister was in the top 10 always gets recognition etc..blah blah blah..not until 4th yr highschool that i guess my family, though they didnt said it i can feel it, expected so much. i wanted to be a veterinarian since 1st yr highschool, and my mom wanted me to go to UP. like nobody wants to go there, everyone dreams to enter UP. who doesnt?

and yes, i disappoint her again. i didnt make it. knowing my mom, she's close to being a perfectionist. not just that my mom graduated from UP and also my brother.

i dont know what to say next...this was a draft, so i forgot everything that ive typed here. :)