Because of a Text Message

i didnt sleep well last night because of a text message i've received from a good friend.

"Ah c *toot*. My crush kc sau un d lng dw nya msbi kya dndaan nya s gnun."

Yan and text message. i dont know. i feel so confused. its just a text message, pero ang daming ibig sabihin. pwedeng totoo pwedeng hindi.

nagsimula lang nung nagaasaran kami. were joking around. doing blind items. tapos hindi niya ma gets ung blind item ko. i gave him a clue. sabi ko ang clue is lagi niya kong inaasar. tapos sinend niya na ung message na yun.

but i did not believe it. but i hoped. hahaha:) yeah i like the person. but i have to stop what im feeling.

the person even told me that he looks to me like im his sister when everyone starts to tease us na baka kami ang magkatuluyan and stuffs. but anyway, who cares.

im convincing my self already that it wont work at all. and i look to him as a friend. a true friend. just like that. so i really need to stop this.

but i didnt sleep well last night. i slept 3:30am just thinking of that message. and wondering. and thinking again..oh it sucks.

but yeah i have to put aside my feelings for friendship not to ruin. :(

tanga-er ako

i sound sooOo pathetic. yesterday wasnt a good day for me. though i am happy that day. weird?! yeah i know.

i think my heart's broken. its aching. i need a cardiotonic drug. hahaha..thats over reacting.

yeah its aching. i always sleep and reading and eating. i ate alone at mcdonalds yesterday. while texting jillian and telling her how i feel. and she understands cause she's feeling the same way too. i mean she have felt it. haha

yes its still aching. but im trying to be ok. i have to accept it. i have to, like i have another choice. :(

yes i am HEARTBROKEN. and it sucks! T.T no im not crying, im just sad.:-(

Minalas Kami

yesterday, we celebrated the anniversary of our organization. it was held in Batangas. it was such a very stressful day.

all members coming decided to meet in school at 11 am. we all thought that we're gonna leave at 11 am since we are only ten who will go. unfortunately we had a problem... there was no driver to drive the jeep we borrowed. until the bf of our sis becomes the driver. yehey? no. we left school around 2:30.

we decided to take the route of EDSA since we will pick up 3 of our brods at the mrt station in guadalupe. but it was freaking traffic. since its saturday, all human beings were outside. when were in robinsons galleria the driver asked me if we should take the flyover or not. i said yes will take the flyover. but i am soooo stupid i forgot that there are 2 flyovers: one is going to Taytay and the other is way going to edsa. we went to the flyover going to Taytay. how frustrating was that?! and then i was traffic. its like we've spent 2 hours in ortigas. shit!

when we've finally surpassed the traffics, we've finally picked up our 3 brods. but thats not the end of our miserable journey. when we were in, i think ayala, the CLUTCH of our jeep just gave up. imagine that...in the highway the clutch gave up. we were all like, WHAT?! then after a few minutes a towing truck came and towed our jeep.

were all students. and we dont have that much money. and we paid the towing company 2500. then the company were suggesting they will fix the clutch. but again an additional payment was needed. then they tried to buy some parts but they couldnt find something. we stayed in the autoshop for like 4 hours, i think. we were all hungry.

then weve decided that we will just commute and some of us will stay until the owner came. then we walked from magallanes to buendia!!! finally, we rented a van. and the trip goes on. we arrived at the place 12:30am!!! we were so hungry. and we slept 3am...

it was raining hard and its cold! we did enjoy some parts of the occassion but not that enjoyable. hehe:D and it doesnt end there. something miserable happened on our way back to manila. but i will not tell it since its very humiliating and confidential. ;-)

im currently depressed and in love ^.^

yehey!!! we have no classes tomorrow. :D

im depressed. it sucks and ive felt really stupid! no, yes i am stupid that day! we had our prelim exam in pharmacology 2 yesterday. i failed. i didnt answer 20 pts of the exam. blanko ako sa test 2. as in walang sagot pati sa essay. i didnt study!!! T.T ugh!!!! i dont want to talk about it.

in love. i dont know what im feeling right now. its weird. i like someone when i shouldnt. actually may gusto talaga ako before, pinapangarap nga eh. kaso nung nakilala ko ung isa, parang siya ang gusto ko. ewan. hindi nga to dapat maramdaman. sounds corny but this is true, masasaktan lang ako. in the event that he'd find someone. i secretly like him. only my highschool friends knows my feeling about him. at kailangan kong handain ang sarili ko sa mga susunod na mga mangyayari. for now, he makes me smile whenever i see him. hahaha:D

next week will be our prelim. i have to study hard! on saturday we will go to batangas to celebrate the anniversary of our organization.

wala akong maisip...

tagalog ang sulatin na ito. hehe:)

Bagyong Milenyo

grabe ang nagdaang bagyo. di namin ramdam ang lakas ng hangin sa bahay namin dahil napapagitnaan ito ng dalawang malalaki at nagtataasang bahay. pinagmamasdan lang namin ang puno ni "tatang" sa tapat.

umaga palang wala ng kuryente. Asar! pero suspendido ang klase. Yehey! Pero badtrip. wala kaming magawa. de-kuryente pa ang kalan namin kaya di kami makaluto. kaya ang solusyon namin, MCDO!!!

nung araw na yun, lahat ata ng tao nasa mga kainan. mukha na nga kaming mcdo. kung nag-sara na ang mcdo, jollibee naman. ang aga ko pa matulog ng mga araw na yun. pagkatapos magligpit ng kinainan, tulog. konting chika tapos pikit na ang mata ko. at gising na ko 6:30 pa lang ng umaga. nagwalis pa nga ako ng mga dahon.

3 araw kaming walang kuryente. lagi kaming nakatunganga. napabili tuloy ang nanay ko ng ihawan. at de-uling kaming nagluto.

sabado ng gabi, sa wakas may ilaw na ulit.:)

grabe ang naging pinsala. sira ang mga puno. billboards. bubongs (what a word). poste. at iba pa.

sa bahay namin sa Laguna, hanggang ngayon wla pa ring kuryente. dahil sa posteng bumagsak. kuwawa naman ang aso ko dun. :(

Inuman

ngayong araw na to, nag-inuman at videoke sessions na naman kami. wala lang masaya lang ako.

dati ayoko ng beer, nakakasuka. pero tama ang sabi ng kaibigan ko sa uste, habang tumatagal sumasarap. hehe:) awa ng Diyos, hindi ako na-lasing. ;p

hanggang dito na lang. may gagawin pa pala akong assignments. (ows?!)

rice and water

last tuesday, i was depressed. thats not the word exactly, more like dismayado. first i dont know if i was late or absent in our pharmacology lab. once our prof checked the attendance and youre not there, your absent, even if you are late. but then i came, i was breathing hard, since i ran from the ground floor up to the 7th flr. i was catching my breath. then, we had these exercise. we have to inject a dextrose to an emaciated dog. the problem was, the dog wasnt cooperating. it sucks. i know she's scared. she dont know any of us in the group. we even dont own the dog. she was jumping over the surgical table. we're trying to restrain her for 2 1/2 hours. until doc nicolas call it off. since we also know the dog was really stressed and dehydrated. we returned it to the owner, who is the guard at the front gate of school. then we just watched at the other groups with their dogs that was behaving properly. geez.

after that, i ate like 2 1/2 cups of rice. and drank 3 galsses of water, one bottle of softdrinks. i was really tired. and it was also hot in the afternoon.

good thing my friends decided we go videoke. hehe:) our way of bonding, tsismisan, and removing stress. haha:)

hell week...

well its our midterms this week and gawd i need some sleep.

monday- its still a regular day for school. and we (my partner and i) won a PVET in our physiology class. yehey! its an achievement for me. haha:) but that day was still oh soo tiring. i left school at 4.30 or 5 and arrived home at 6. our exam the next day was pharmacology and ruminant.

tuesday- it sucks! i concentrated on pharma not really studying in ruminant...and i think..no wait, i really failed! i couldnt answer much of the questions. :(

wednesday- our exam was physiology and pathology. it was disappointing. i slept last tueday night around 2:30 am already and woke up around 5:30 because i was reading 6 chapters of a book. then during the exam, i got mental blocked with the questions, and couldnt answer much. after the exam on physio, i was really sleepy and tired. good thing our exam on patho starts at 3, so we can still review. our exam in patho was more of pictures and laboratory slides. i wrote alot of answers on that exam, but wasnt sure if its correct. :)

thursday- today our exam was helminthology (worms) and equine management. supposedly our exam on helminth would be yesterday, but our prof moved it and our equine should start at 3 but was moved to 1. its sucks on the part of the equine. yung mga inaral ko, konti lang ang lumabas. asar talaga. in short i failed, again.

tomorrow will be our exam on physio lab, myco and proto. if you could just see my face now, its horrible. i got huge eyebugs and pimples. this week was really stressful. -->it sucks on that day. i woke up around 7:30 am already and the exam starts at 8. so i jumped out of bed, i even asked myself if i should take a bath or wag na lang, but then i looked horrible so i took a bathe. then i've decided i will ride a taxi. good thing the fare was exactly 100. the bad news, i failed the exam. :(

despite of this stress, i am happy. maybe because of him. haha:) everytime i see, he makes me smile hindi lang smile, tawa pa. i cant take off my eyes from him. i always wanted to see him. kaya nga masaya ako tuwing exam kasi nakakatabi ko siya. sana, pumasa kami pareho. :)

got to go. i still need to study and review.

different

i seemed to be different in our family. it sucks...when all the family members are smart.

our mom always expect us to get high grades and it seems that, i think, i disappoint her. it started when i was young. in gradeschool. im not good, i guess im just average. i was always in the 3rd section and when i was in grade 6 i was at the 2nd to the last section, while my brother was always in the highest or A section. my brother and younger sister always got alot of recognition, while me, i was invisible.

in highschool, nothing had change. i still get low grades. my highest grade was 89 in chem and lowest was 77 filipino. of course my mom was disappointed. filipino lang bagsak ka pa. ano ka ba? Lebanese? while my sister was in the top 10 always gets recognition etc..blah blah blah..not until 4th yr highschool that i guess my family, though they didnt said it i can feel it, expected so much. i wanted to be a veterinarian since 1st yr highschool, and my mom wanted me to go to UP. like nobody wants to go there, everyone dreams to enter UP. who doesnt?

and yes, i disappoint her again. i didnt make it. knowing my mom, she's close to being a perfectionist. not just that my mom graduated from UP and also my brother.

i dont know what to say next...this was a draft, so i forgot everything that ive typed here. :)

...blank... (magulo ang entry)

we dont have classes yesterday and today. yehey!!! i really dont know whats the reason, but thats great. since i have an exam tomorrow, i can study. err, later maybe.

so whats keeping me busy in the past weeks...

first: last aug 2 i finally presented myself in an organization at school. i was really nervous. and i even felt stupid answering their questions. but i can do it. its not yet over, but i can make it. im stronger that before. sounds cliche. hehe:)

i wasnt happy last week and this week, maybe because i didnt see HIM for 8 days. tsk tsk tsk... i even dont know why i liked that guy. but everytime i see him, masaya ako. i even tried to talk to him but what i said was really stupid. haha:) he seems mayabang, no mayabang talaga siya. akala mo kung sinong gwapo...hindi naman. macho lang siya pero hindi. yuck!

midterms is finally coming..and i brought 2 i-on and 3 lipovitan ira for the whole exam week. to keep me alive since i have my period now. it sucks really!

yesterday was the first time my brother received his first sweldo. haha..it was really fun coz he's really excited. he gave all his money to our mom...aaww..

since the Mayon Volcano will erupt again anytime soon...look at this picture : the eruption has become a tourist destination. my mom went to bicol last last week. wow..its really amazing. the wonders the of the earth.

tomorrow is our exam in pharma lec..wish me luck..i failed last prelim so i have to pass the midterms..:)

and i hope to see HIM. for inspirations sake!

5 days stucked at home

thats right. since saturday afternoon im just at home. sitting. eating. sleeping. reading. doing chores.

saturday and sunday had a fine weather. but when monday arrived it was raining hard...so hard. then Pres. Arroyo had her SONA (State of the Nation Address) and i was sleeping when she did that so i dont what are her plans for this year. i thought we had a class on tuesday but no it was cancelled due to a very bad weather. and because of the bad weather we still didnt have a class today.

it was very disappointing. i want to go to school. to go out and err..have fun. not that it wasnt fun here but its boring. all we did was to eat, sleep, read, watch tv, internet surfing, and watch dvd's and vcd's and eat again.

another thing my cats, my stray cats...nakakaawa sila. :(

but i guess we have our classes tomorrow. yehey! i would finally see...uhm...him. haha:)

goodnight! :)

a new HAIRCUT...

finally i managed to go to a salon. so this was my new hairstyle. LOL.
before after
parang ang panget.

eto nanaman ako. internet. exam ko bukas sa pharmacology lab at ruminant lab. T.T kabado na nga ako eh. nag-aral na ko pero ewan. ang gulo ng utak ko. sana may masagot ako bukas. bye!

im in bliss

im happy today because, beside the fact that i only have two classes and it ends at 2:30, my crush said my name. hehe:) or rather he called my name. hehe:) ang babaw no?! but i have a huge crush on him.

that was it. this sem would be tough and hard. i am always tired. i eat alot and sleep alot. not to mention that its July but its still hot. i just hope the sun would hide and cool breeze would come?! i dunno, i have this terrible allergy if its really hot thats why i want a cold weather.

thats it!

(i think this blog entry is nonsense.) (above)

death penalty

recently (i think last month) President Arroyo signed a *i forgot* a paper that state that death penalty is banned(?), which i find ridiculous.

i mean, ok its against human rights. taking a persons life only God can do that. but what about the victims? cases like rape, murder, etc. ok so lets just re-phrase it, what if you are the victims family and you daughter was raped and killed by this ugly stupid being? dont you feel that you also want to kill that being for him to feel how your daughter feels? and when the court decided that he would be sentenced death, you were happy. you thought you find justice but then Pres. Arroyo signed the petition paper stating that death penalty was removed. so he is safe. lifetime imprisonment only.

i think living in jail wasnt like hell after all. you still have the basics: food, shelter, water, clothing. i know they also have livelihood programs, bible study/reading etc. you only miss your family but still get to see them.

some people say we should give them a second chance. second chances for me is stupid. I believed that people who did something before, would do it again. may be after a long period of time.

just look at the advantages of what death penalty would do:
1. there would be a decrease in crime rate. its obvious.

so ok i can only think of one reason right now... but wait i thought of another reason...

2. there would be justice. if you were proven guilty, you should face the consequences. theres no one to blame but YOU. Life you take, life shall i get from you. everybody IS aware of what will happen if killed someone. you should think first before doing a crime. poverty is not the reason why did this and that. hello?!

so i can only think of 2 reasons..:)

now that death penalty is gone, im sure there would be an increase in crime rate. to think that some of the criminals are rich, they would only pay the penalty in the nick of time. tsk tsk tsk. i pity our country.

(this blog entry is the opinion of the author.)

Manny Pacquiao did it again.

last sunday Jul 2, 2006 everybody was in there homes, in front of the tv watching the event everybody esp. sports enthusiasts is waiting for. the fight between Manny "Pacman" Pacquiao and Oscar "Chololo" Larios.

to make the story short, Pacman won after 12 rounds. he did not KO Chololo. i must say Larios was tough.

and because of that he received and award from the Malacanang. The Order of Lakandula (not sure) Champion for Life together with Ms. International Precious Lara Quigaman and the 3 mountaineers who reached the summit of Mt. Everest ( Leo Oracion, Romy Garduce, and *sorry i forgot the other one*).

on November there would be a fight again between Pacman and Erik "El Terrible" Morales i think in the US.

whew..that was long. i hope yoo enjoyed reading though there are alot of wrong grammar. im not really good in english. :):)

tough week

i've had the toughest week. its so tiring to the point that i eat alot.

MONDAY- was a dying day. i had 4 classes, no its FIVE. and i had only an hour break.
7:30-9 Physiology lecture
9:10-10:10 Helminthology lecture
10:10-11 BREAK
11-2 Physiology laboratory
2:10-3:10 Pathology lecture
3:30-6:30 Pathology lab
see? its very tiring. i was really exhausted. not to mention that my close friends are not my classmates. so, im alone and im quiet. LOL

TUESDAY- was the best schedule i have for this semester. i only have two subjects both Pharmacology. it ends at 2:30.

WEDNESDAY- sched was same as monday just remove physio lab and exchange patho lab with mycology (fungi). mycology IS the boring subject.

i was tired that day. after our mycology class, me and my groupmates in physio lab went to bagong barrio to get the dog for our lab class on monday. we just walk from school to bagong barrio. and the road was wet and muddy. my little toe got bruised because of walking. not to mention the stopovers. i left the school at 7 pm and arrived home at 8 pm. i ate and sleep. by the way our dog was a 1yr old pit bull. yay!

THURSDAY and FRIDAY - was just ok.

today i went to monumento to buy books. my back aches because my bag was heavy. and i still dont have an anti-rabbies shot. we need it for our physio lab and i still dont have the certificate. ung nanay ko nag-iinarte nanaman. ang tagal. nakakainis nga eh.

i have to go, my mom will use the net now.

by the way, i think im IN LOVE now. *blush*

i had a bad dream last night that made me feel stupid and alone again. but before that, i had a bad week...school week.

wednesday june 14 - my class starts at 7:30 am. i woke up at 5:45 am to get ready. as i was about to leave the house, i closed the door and a small wood chunck had entered inside my nail. it hurts. its really inside my nail. i panicked. i started cutting my nail so i could pull out the wood chunck out. and finally after 30 mins i pulled out the wood. it hurts and it bleeds but i've felt relieved. but i was late for my physiology class. :(

thursday june 15 - nothing much had happened but its boring.

friday june 16 - same as in june 15 and it sucks coz i waited for 3 hours (guess only) for our protozoology but theres no prof. it sucks really since i had a running nose at that time.

do you believe in premonition? i had it once. i dream two of classmates. at that time we didnt know that they like each other. but i dreamed that sila na. the next day, nanliligaw na yung guy sa girl. then last night, i had a dream again and its not good. my crush has a crush on my friend and Rachelle Ann Go. it sucks and it hurts...not because of Rachelle but because it was friend and my friend knew who was my crush. i dont know. what if it came true?

it happened to me before, when i was in highschool. 2nd year. my friend and my ex whom i really love had a relationship when i was absent for one day at school. ang bilis noh?! isang araw lang akong nawala sila na. kahit na wala na kami, ang sakit pa rin. i cried really. i even punched the wall in my room and cried to sleep. i dont want to happen it again.

im tired. why do we need to love? why is love so complicated? ewan.

i read this in my friendster's bulletin. haha:) totoo ba yan?

Types ng Suitors: Basahin muna mga mare bagosagutin ang mga prospect papables!

1. Mr. Gwapings- mayaman, gwapo, kilala, at higit sa lahat may wheels. mataas ang confidence nya na hindi sya mababasted, kaya pag nabasted..maapektuhan ng husto ang kanyang EGO. at teyk note, malas mo kung may sour grape attitude pa yan. pwedenyang sabihing "sus kala mo kung sinong maganda e pinagtyatyagaan ko lang naman sya!pwe!"

2. Mr. Quickie- ang type ng manliligaw na kada magkikita kayoe wala nang alam na sabihin kundi "kelan mo baako sasagutin?" o kaya "i love you na, ako bahindi mo pa lab?" kahit na isang linggo pa langnaman syang pumoporma. kung baga dinadaannya sa pangungulit para mabilis ang pagsagot mo.

3. Mr. Everything- linya nya ang "sagutin mo lang ako, ibibigay kosayo lahat, lahat ng magustuhan mo. kahit ang pabuwan o kaya mundo." tanga ka na pag nagpautoka. dahil pag sinagot mo na yan, makakalimutanna nya ang linyang yan.

4. Mr. Stalker- eto yung type ng manliligaw na pag nagkahiwalaykayo e sisimulan ka sa tanong na "kumain ka naba?" pagkasagot mo susundan pa nya ulit ngtanong "nsan ka ngayon?" "sinong kasamamo?" "anong ginagawa mo?" at kung anu-ano pa.basta tungkol sa daily activities mo kelanganmalaman nya.

5. Mr. Take it or leave it- pag binasted mo ang ganitong type ngmanliligaw, asahan mo bukas may nililigawan nasya ulit. at heto pa, hinding hindi ka na nyapapansinin. period.

6. Mr. Salesman- dadaanin ka sa matatamis na salita. parang siMr. Everything din kaya lang sya mas matindimang-uto. yun bang tipong.."ang ganda gandatalaga ng mga mata mo.." o kaya "ang kinis kinismo" o kaya "ang lambot ng mga kamay mo" at ibapang pang-uuto mapasagot ka lang.

7. Mr. Good Dog- eto ang nakakatuwang manliligaw. kase payagsyang magpaalipin. taga bitbit ng bag mo o kahitng mga kaibigan mo. kahit magmuka syang buntotsa tuwing may gala kayo ng mga barkada mo.napapakitang gilas kung baga. pero pag sinagotmo na, for sure gaganti yan.

8. Mr. Anonymous- motto nya ang "action speaks louder than voice".wala kang kaalam-alam, nanliligaw na pala. kayapala ang bait-bait sayo. e akala mo mabait langtalaga. hehe!

9. Mr. Second chance- sya ang pinakamasugid mong manliligaw. kahit100 tayms mong sabihing ayaw mo sa kanya atwala na syang pag-asa ang sasabihin nyaparin "Please give me a second chance"

10. Mr. Romantiko- jologs ang mga paraan nya sa panliligaw.manghaharana, pakikisamahan mga barkada mo,liligawan parents mo at laging may dalang flowersand chocolates tuwing dadalaw. pero madalasnakakapagpakilig sya ng nililigawan nya dahil sakanyang "malinis na hangarin"

~*~

im a little happy and not in the mood. i saw my crush. haha:) at sa wakas, baka maging kaklase ko siya sa 2 subjects. *blush* un lang. cge na. im tired!

today was the first day of school...and im not that happy. for the simplest reason, im not with my friends. :(

i just had two subjects today. helminthology and pharmacology. another thing, i thought my crush was my classmate. i saw his friend in our first subject so i thought that OMG his my classmate. too bad he wasnt. :( he was at the other section. sayang! haha:)

un lang. another thing, it rained hard at school and im soo happy because its soo cold. but it stopped after a while. i hope it rains tonight. *cross-finger*

tomorrow my first class was at 7:30 am and its Physiology. i dont how will i wake up early. geez.

it was raining or it were. i just hope it would really rain hard tonight. since this pass weeks it was really hooot , i really wish it would rain.

one more day to go and im back to the university. i just hope it would be ok and i hope i would pass all my subjects. geez.

and oh, my dog inkee is already a father. yehey!!! the bitch just gave birth yesterday. hehe:)

i just went to sm manila to buy some school stuff.

its soooo hot.

its soooo hot. its like hell last night. then i had these terrible allergy again. i scratch the whole night and i cant sleep well.

i had these allergy last month pa. i dont know where i am allergic. everytime that i eat meat, i will scratch in a few minutes. ang laki ng mga pantal ko. i thought that maybe im allergic to meat since i watched a documentary on a slaugther house. it was disgusting and then i said to myself that i would only eat vegetables. so i did. then under circumstances, i had no choice but to eat meat. thats the time i started itching. was it because of the meat?

now i had these theory that maybe it was the weather. here, in quezon city, was really hot like hell, unlike in laguna the weather was fair. last year i stayed in laguna the whole summer but this summer i had to stay at qc cos i had summer classes. sometimes it was really hot here then in the afternoon it will rain hard. the weather changes. right now i still had the allergies. i dont know what medicine to take. im worried. its not normal, you see?

every night, its killing me. i always scratch, because its really icthy. only 4 days to go before classes, what if i have the allergies at school? it sucks.

i just hope it stops.

yesterday was my brother's bday. he's 22. and we celebrated it today. we went to rustans makati because my mom got some gc's. to be honestly, its my first time to enter rustans. ive entered it before but that was in the early 1990's. and i couldnt believe of how expensive the clothes were. it ranges not lower than 2000, i guess. i like this blouse and it cost almost 4000. 4000 for a blouse? no way. i end up not buying anything there.

i went to glorietta, and i really like the bag at nike. but it cost 3000. mom did not allow me to buy it. then i saw this jacket at lulu castagnette, and its really beautiful. but i did not enter the shop, cause i know its expensive.

my brother and i end up shopping at sm department store. and what i bought there was one blouse...only. my feet hurts because all i do was to walk and walk.

after doing that, my mom and sister went back to sm to pay some overdue bills. and me and my brother stayed outside. and i couldnt believe he opened up something to me. i was shocked with what he said. and i wouldnt tell it here since its very confidential. while waiting for our mom, it rained so hard. finally they're done.

we ate at Marina. the food was great. yum yum. then we headed home.

one week to go, and im back to school again. wee, im excited. im excited to see all my friends, since i dont have a cellphone right now, i miss them. and im excited to see someone who's really special to me. :) nyahaha

i got 4!!!

yes! for the first time i got the highest grade in school. i got a flat 4 on our histology class. nyahaha:) im just really happy. though i only got 2 and 2.5 in my inorganic chemistry class. all smiles.

ive got a 2 weeks vacation before i go back to school on june 13, 2006. im not really happy beacuse my friends and i are not classmates for most of our subjects. im alone and thats not good. :( and i have this feeling that im on the other section. geez.

i hope school this year would be fine and great.

something funny and disappointing(?):

finally, i've watched last night The DaVinci Code. it was a great movie just like the book. the thrill and action was there. not to mention a woman was screaming when Silas attacked.

there was nothing to worry about the movie. i just plain fiction and just a story. whats important is what you believe in. as for me, nothing has change in my faith to God and Jesus. whether Jesus and Mary Magdalene has a relationship. again, whats important is what you believe.

one thing since it was R18 here in the Philippines, we managed to make my 15 yr old sister look 18 yrs old. the funny part was that the ticket lady thought i wasnt 18 yet. she asked if i am 18 already, and i said 'uh actually im 20'. i dont know if thats a good complement. oh well, thats good i look young. haha:)

and because i watched last night, i failed on my quiz in histology today. and i didnt study for my finals in inorganic chemistry. haha:) but i think i will pass. :)

something sad:

my pet mice, einstein, died last monday. its really sad. i dont know why he died. he's not sick. he's still ok the night before. :( and today, my siberian hamster, cybie, also died. same as einstein, i dont know why he died. they're all ok. i feed them regularly and even talk to them for them not to feel lonely. i clean there cages regularly, but why? :(

on the lighter side, i guess there happy...in pet heaven (i guess).

society is starting to be over reacting, paranoid or whatever.

they're planning to ban the movie The Da Vinci Code and not just that, but also the book. i mean the book was released a long time ago. 3 years ago maybe, then they will ban it just now. they sound so pathetic.

cant they tell what is a fiction and a fact? the movie was only a fiction. the only real thing there was da Vinci's painting, opus dei, the grail etc. how come they thought that people will easily believe that Jesus and Mary Magdalene has some kind of a relationship. people these days are not narrow minded. and i think Filipino people, has a strong faith and foundation to God. we still believe in God and Jesus.

why are these people scared that we might lose our faith? unless there was really something. haha joke lang.

pinagalitan pa nila si Laguardia. they're really pathetic.

i went to greenhills today to watch the movie since it will not be showing in sm malls. unfortunately i wasnt able to, beacuse ticket were sold out. the next selling of tickets will be at 7:30 pm.

ill watch it on tuesday maybe, before pathetic people in politics ban it.

were all alone in the house. mom is in boracay now, because she has work to do there. too bad we couldnt come with her. i have school exams. :( sayang!

anyway, midterms namin ngayon sa histology. whew! pasado nanaman ako. though hindi ko ineexpect yung score ko. ang taas eh. haha:) hindi na ko ung highest. nyahaha:) ok lang. another thing, i really couldnt believe it. pasado ako sa inorganic chem. hindi kasi ako nag-aral dun. halos lahat ng sagot ko hula lang. naka 63/90 pa ko. LOL. hmmm...pwede na kong manghuhula. haha:)

last wednesday, umulan. haha. i dont like rainy days nor do i hate it. gusto ko siya in the sense na ang sarap matulog at kumain at pumirmi lang sa bahay. i hate it in the sense naman na pag pumapasok ako sa school eh, sobrang malas ako. i hate flood.

ayun lang. wala akong maisip at magawa eh.

May Tama Ako.

its been really weird.

i like this guy at school. pero hindi ko talaga alam kung bakit ko siya gusto. pareho kami ng yr level magkaiba nga lang ng section. pero kilala ko siya. hindi lang naman kasi ako ang may crush sa kanya.

2nd yr pa kami nung nakikita ko na siya. pero wala pa kong crush sa kanya. ang yabang kasi ng dating eh. kala mo kung sinong macho. crush na siya nung kaibigan ko. sa kanya ko nga nalaman ung pangalan nun eh. so yun nga, hindi pa ganung kalakas ung feeling kasi attached pa ko sa past.

nung 3rd yr na kami, ewan. nag-iba. lalo na nung second sem. i guess marami ung kilig moments ko nung 2nd sem. pang-asar ko lang kasi dun sa kaibigan ko, kasi nga crush din niya, pero kinikilig din naman ako. oo, aaminin ko, hinahanap ko siya pag pumapasok ako sa school for inspiration bago ako pumasok sa klase. at lagi ko naman siyang nakikita. haaaay!

kung pwede lang manligaw ang babae sa lalaki siguro ginawa ko na. tingin ko, alam na niya na crush ko siya eh. kasi halata din ata ako. pag dumadaan kasi siya, natatawa ako. take note, natatawa hindi nangingiti. tapos tuwing nakakasalubong ko siya, parang humihinto ang mundo ko. again take note, mundo ko lang ang humihinto hindi mundo niya.

ayun..tapos ngayong summer hindi ko siya nakikita. nakita ko siya once, pareho pa nga kami ng kulay ng tshirt. nyahaha:) pero gusto ko siyang makita.

ano ba to? crush lang naman.

hindi naman talaga siya gwapo. malaki lang ang katawan. matangkad. instik. pero hindi gwapo. hindi nga rin cute eh. pero may angulo na gwapo siya lalo na pag naka glasses.
tingin ko, swerte magiging gf nun. madami din ata ang nagkakagusto dun.

actually, dalawa silang crush ko. pero ewan mas malakas ata ang tama ko sa kanya. tapos ngayon napupuyat ako, alam niyo ba kung bakit? kakaisip sa kanya.
nakakainis! bwiset talaga. sana mawala na tong feelings na to.

*i sound pathetic, dont i?*

laughter

april 17 we've had summer classes. but just last friday that i enjoyed the most..and also yesterday.

i brought our digicam to school to take pictures of me and my friends. haha not to mention that i am happy at that time because for the first time i was the highest on our exam in histology. 96/90..haha

then after taking the pictures we just talk laugh and we've watched videos from ram's cellphone. it was all scandals, and eeww..really.

then we part ways cause most of them have classes at 1 pm. my class is at 2 and others at 3. right after my exam in chemistry, madel texted me and it states that she was at the apt yellow gate. i went there after our chemistry lab...

..she was singing. nag-videoke kami. haha:) i sang like 10 songs. haha..my scores are bad. but i really enjoyed it. we left the apt at 5:30 pm. ung magic sing kasi eh. hindi ko tuloy napigilang kumanta. hehe:) and most of the songs were old.

yesterday, i didnt attended my class on chemistry because i was too lazy to attend. we just went to the halo-halo store to eat halo-halo since it was really hot. inaasar ko si eric at madel na paunahan makaubos ng halo-halo. since i know that i can beat them. haha:) but they didnt take it seriously. text pa rin ng text si eric. kalahati na kami ni madel sa halo-halo tapos siya 1/4 pa lang. sabi ko: "kung sino ang huling maka-ubos ng halo-halo siya ang magbabayad pati ung rc ni ram." bigla siyang nagmadali. nag-unahan na kaming tatlo. nilunok na ni eric ung sago, saging etc ng buong buo. dinagdagan pa ng mga kumento ni ram. lalabas daw ung sago sa ilong ni eric. hindi na daw ako humuhingi. but still won. ako ang unang nakaubos ng halo-halo.

it was just for fun. i still paid for my halo-halo. it was really fun.

...thats why i hate kids...

it just sucks. 2 months ago i told you princess gave birth to three cute little kittens. she transferred them to another place because it was rainy at that time.

last night she came back together with the kittens. but this time there were only two. i think the other one died. i was so happy. the kittens are chubby. maybe because of the cat food i bought for princess for her milk production, thats why the kittens are healthy..and chubby.

yes i WAS happy, not until at 6:15 pm. there were kids claiming that those kittens were theirs. as if. pusakal kaya sila. malamang walang nagmamay-ari dun. and i dont think they're capable of taking good care of those kittens. they even dont know how to carry properly or handle the kittens. damn i just hate them.

pag bumalik yung mga kittens na un, itatago ko sila talaga. i really cried. i even cant concentrate to my studies. we have an exam tomorrow.

my heart aches. really! OA na kung OA pero totoo. darn kids, malaman ko lang na hindi nila pinapakain un, aagawin ko talaga un sa kanila. kahit umabot pa kami sa barangay. i think i can defend myself. nyahaha

i just feel sad! i hope the kittens are okay now. and i hope princess would find them and bring them here. haha:)

by the way, princess think her kittens are gone or lost. she's looking for them an hour after those darn kids took them.

argh! i just really hate them!

i watching rather listening Pinoy Big Brother Teen Edition. I like the song sang by Itchyworms. haha...

anyway, im just glad finally i found some answers on our experiment in inorganic chem. thank God. si Jeus kasi eh, hindi pumasok. haha:) but there are still questions i cannot find the answers. bahala na bukas! ma'm is good :)

another thing, wala pa kong notes sa histology. bukas pa naman ididiscuss un. ung prof ko pa naman dun, UP style ang turo. hehe:) tapos hindi pa nag-te-text ung may hawak nung notes kung saang lupalop ng malabon niya iniwan ung copy for photocopy. :(

bahala na rin bukas!

State of Emergency. Proclamtion no. 1017???

last night, the DepEd and CHED cancelled all classes for all students TODAY! i wasnt really happy about it. not that i like school, but because at the end of the semester tatarantahin kami ng mga profs. and i still need to finish one experiment for out bacteriology lab class. my friend texted me this morning that she's really happy that there are no classes. yeah right!

last friday feb 24, 2006. we dont have our class because all our profs were in baguio having a seminar about animal welfare(?). not until i received a text from my mom saying that if i could wait for my sister because there were no classes. my mom called my sister and told her that there are no classes in the college level. i didnt care why nor did i ask. i opened the tv and there were news everywhere.

then there it was, the PRESIDENT OF THE RP stating that we are under the STATE OF EMERGENCY, proclamation 1017. sounds like martial law. my initial reaction was bakit? anong meron? ano ng nangyayari sa mundo? este pilipinas lang pala. my brother told me: ano ka ba? may coup de'tat na. magugunaw na ang mundo. that was a joke actually.

i thought they were celebrating the anniversary of EDSA. and i just hate whats happening. i think they're using the people power for their own sakes. its not people power anymore. not everyone is participating. my mom was an activist and she was in people power 1, but now i guess she's tired. she even thinks that Pres. Arroyo should stay. not that she likes her, pero kahit naman sino ang iuupo mo sa posisyon na yan ganun pa din ang pilipinas, 3rd world country pa din tayo. pag umalis si Gloria, di naman tayo agad aayos/uunlad eh. syempre may mga stages pa yan. stages of development.

hanggang ngayon, hindi pa na-li-lift ung State of Emergency. so we are still under the state of emergency.

i understand those people who wants a change. sino ba ang ayaw maging maayos ang buhay? ang kumain 3 beses sa isang araw? ang mabili lahat ng kailangan? ang yumaman? syempre wala. lahat tayo may gusto.

bakit ba hindi na lang tayo magtulungan?

minsan nakakainis na, nakakasawa na, nakakahiya na.

trying to find myself.

last monday, my mom received an email. saying she was accepted to work in NY. yes New York and she's bringing us. i am happy until now. i just cant wait.

im going there to... i guess find myself. find my true happiness. right now im just confused about some personal things. i feel so bad. i am such a loser. i just wish im invincible. i hate myself at this very moment while typing.

im having mixed emotions. i want to bring einstein (white mice), cybie and reeyan (hamster) to NY.

i am shutting down. i just want to be alone.

confusion strikes once again.

i just came from school. and i am CONFUSED!

our histology class was cancelled. while still waiting one of my classmates read some notice on the bulletin board. its about the NVAT that all vet med students will take after their 2nd yr. when i read it, its said: Attention: 1. all regular 2nd yr students 2. all transferees and 2nd course students of vet med from SY 2003-2004 to Present SY 2005-2006.

i was like what? again. i read it word by word. i am a transferee SY 2004-2005. so it means i will take the NVAT on April 1 2006 in UP Diliman. i read it again and this time i called one of my classmate who is also a transferee. and he was like Ano?! kukuha din ako.

how could it be? i am already a third yr student. i passed all my subjects last sem so why will i take the NVAT?

NVAT ung parang ticket mo para matuloy mo ung vet med. Pag bumagsak ka, wag ka ng mag vetmed. Lumipat ka na ng course. Pano kaya un? Hindi ko talaga na-gets. Mga second year student ang kukuha nun para malaman kung sino ang mga dapat mag-3rd yr.

erm..now im really confused. i have to ask everyone. i dont get it. 4th yr na ko next sem. someone must explain this. the Dean or the Asst. Dean since he was the one who signed it. Tomorrow.

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last wednesday i bought two hamsters. siberian hamsters. i named them cybie and reeyan (siberian). hehe. hindi pinagisipan. they're soooo cute. cybie is a black hamster and reeyan is a motled hamster (white with brownish to greyish spots). its my first time to have a pet hamster. andim reading all books about hamsters just to make sure that i understand them. hihi:)

last friday its the birthday of my friend ava. we went swimming. its was fun, except that my RIGHT HAND starts swelling. and yesterday, i went to the UST Hospital because my whole hand was swelling. i cant straighten up my fingers. and it looks like a gloves filled with water. i cant write. thats why i was absent in my three subjects. and now my hand is in good shape. but its itchy.

anyway..its 2006 already. i hope this year would be great for me. esp in my studies. belated HAPPY NEW YEAR everyone!