Because of a Text Message

i didnt sleep well last night because of a text message i've received from a good friend.

"Ah c *toot*. My crush kc sau un d lng dw nya msbi kya dndaan nya s gnun."

Yan and text message. i dont know. i feel so confused. its just a text message, pero ang daming ibig sabihin. pwedeng totoo pwedeng hindi.

nagsimula lang nung nagaasaran kami. were joking around. doing blind items. tapos hindi niya ma gets ung blind item ko. i gave him a clue. sabi ko ang clue is lagi niya kong inaasar. tapos sinend niya na ung message na yun.

but i did not believe it. but i hoped. hahaha:) yeah i like the person. but i have to stop what im feeling.

the person even told me that he looks to me like im his sister when everyone starts to tease us na baka kami ang magkatuluyan and stuffs. but anyway, who cares.

im convincing my self already that it wont work at all. and i look to him as a friend. a true friend. just like that. so i really need to stop this.

but i didnt sleep well last night. i slept 3:30am just thinking of that message. and wondering. and thinking again..oh it sucks.

but yeah i have to put aside my feelings for friendship not to ruin. :(

tanga-er ako

i sound sooOo pathetic. yesterday wasnt a good day for me. though i am happy that day. weird?! yeah i know.

i think my heart's broken. its aching. i need a cardiotonic drug. hahaha..thats over reacting.

yeah its aching. i always sleep and reading and eating. i ate alone at mcdonalds yesterday. while texting jillian and telling her how i feel. and she understands cause she's feeling the same way too. i mean she have felt it. haha

yes its still aching. but im trying to be ok. i have to accept it. i have to, like i have another choice. :(

yes i am HEARTBROKEN. and it sucks! T.T no im not crying, im just sad.:-(

Minalas Kami

yesterday, we celebrated the anniversary of our organization. it was held in Batangas. it was such a very stressful day.

all members coming decided to meet in school at 11 am. we all thought that we're gonna leave at 11 am since we are only ten who will go. unfortunately we had a problem... there was no driver to drive the jeep we borrowed. until the bf of our sis becomes the driver. yehey? no. we left school around 2:30.

we decided to take the route of EDSA since we will pick up 3 of our brods at the mrt station in guadalupe. but it was freaking traffic. since its saturday, all human beings were outside. when were in robinsons galleria the driver asked me if we should take the flyover or not. i said yes will take the flyover. but i am soooo stupid i forgot that there are 2 flyovers: one is going to Taytay and the other is way going to edsa. we went to the flyover going to Taytay. how frustrating was that?! and then i was traffic. its like we've spent 2 hours in ortigas. shit!

when we've finally surpassed the traffics, we've finally picked up our 3 brods. but thats not the end of our miserable journey. when we were in, i think ayala, the CLUTCH of our jeep just gave up. imagine that...in the highway the clutch gave up. we were all like, WHAT?! then after a few minutes a towing truck came and towed our jeep.

were all students. and we dont have that much money. and we paid the towing company 2500. then the company were suggesting they will fix the clutch. but again an additional payment was needed. then they tried to buy some parts but they couldnt find something. we stayed in the autoshop for like 4 hours, i think. we were all hungry.

then weve decided that we will just commute and some of us will stay until the owner came. then we walked from magallanes to buendia!!! finally, we rented a van. and the trip goes on. we arrived at the place 12:30am!!! we were so hungry. and we slept 3am...

it was raining hard and its cold! we did enjoy some parts of the occassion but not that enjoyable. hehe:D and it doesnt end there. something miserable happened on our way back to manila. but i will not tell it since its very humiliating and confidential. ;-)

im currently depressed and in love ^.^

yehey!!! we have no classes tomorrow. :D

im depressed. it sucks and ive felt really stupid! no, yes i am stupid that day! we had our prelim exam in pharmacology 2 yesterday. i failed. i didnt answer 20 pts of the exam. blanko ako sa test 2. as in walang sagot pati sa essay. i didnt study!!! T.T ugh!!!! i dont want to talk about it.

in love. i dont know what im feeling right now. its weird. i like someone when i shouldnt. actually may gusto talaga ako before, pinapangarap nga eh. kaso nung nakilala ko ung isa, parang siya ang gusto ko. ewan. hindi nga to dapat maramdaman. sounds corny but this is true, masasaktan lang ako. in the event that he'd find someone. i secretly like him. only my highschool friends knows my feeling about him. at kailangan kong handain ang sarili ko sa mga susunod na mga mangyayari. for now, he makes me smile whenever i see him. hahaha:D

next week will be our prelim. i have to study hard! on saturday we will go to batangas to celebrate the anniversary of our organization.