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the irony of life

when it comes to work or looking for a job/career...we all have our dream work.

when i was young, about 5-6 years old, my dream work is believe it or not, is to be a cashier or bagger at a grocery store. i find life so simple if your work is simple. of course, it doesn't apply nowadays. as a child, i enjoyed pretending i work at a grocery store! hahahaha.

when i was in grade 6, they interviewed me for the year book. my dream career at that time is to become a Businesswoman. why? we had a business before that i would help selling items during vacation or weekends. its a small store in ATC, more of a tiangge, but it was mabenta. my mom would give me "my salary", and bought school supplies and bag with it.

during high school years, it changed! i want to become a veterinarian. why? for my pets. i have a cat and a dog. a visit at a clinic, made me think, "hey! this is cool. i want to be the vet of my dog and cats." then during senior year, it kind of make a sudden turn. i didn't passed UPCAT where i chose vet med as a course. i passed the UST exam where i chose information management as a course. in short i enrolled at UST, but then i don't like my course. after one year, i decided to transfer to another university offering vet med. this is to fulfill my dream.

during my vet med years in college, i can say that my grades are good. there are some high's and low's. i am proud of my grades. i graduated from vet med in october of 2009. i looked for a job, but it was hard to look for any work. they would require a licensed vet.

i ended up as an asst. pre-school teacher. i really enjoyed this work. the company, the children, the activities everything, but then i know there is something missing. i miss my vet med years. i decided to resign in feb 2011 to take the veterinarian board exam. i admit that i still missed being a teacher. there is a tinge of regret that i resigned and i wished that i could come back. past is past. hehe

after passing the board exam, i am happy, but i don't know where to start, what to practice or what to do. i really wanted to work for the government. maka-Pilipinas ako, pero hindi ko sinasabing hindi ko iniisip magtrabaho sa ibang bansa but i would rather work here than abroad.

there are a lot of choices: aso't pusa, baboy, manok, kabayo, baka, kambing, academe, sales, government, public health, research..etc. i would choose government, academe, public health, research, baboy and manok.

i'm now in small animal practice. honestly, i'm not happy. hindi ko nga alam kung bakit. i dont understand what i'm feeling, whats wrong with me? quarter life crisis na ata to.


how ironic. kung anong gusto mo, ayaw sa'yo. Yung ayaw mo, yun ang napupunta sa'yo.

for real...

August 29, 2011

the oath taking of newly licensed veterinarians

 wala akong masabi eh.

its official - I'M A VETERINARIAN!!!!

No words can describe how happy I am. After 5 months of reading, studying, reviewing and praying to pass the board exam. I am blessed, because I passed.

It was never easy. I failed for the first time, and I would always tell myself that it will never happen again. Iba na kasi ang kaba pag second time na. For me, the exam will make or break my decision. Baka magsimula na ang mid-life crisis ko pag di ako pumasa. I left my work, enrolled in a review center, ask “baon” from my mom again, but this time I took the review seriously. Although I tried to watch tv once in awhile, been watching masterchef autralia, hell’s kitchen, next top model, and believe it or not…all the shows of the Kardashians.

So after reviewing, for 3 consecutive days (wala man lang pahinga?) it’s the exam. I really made an effort to think positive. I prayed for God’s guidance. Nagdasal din ako na sana ung mga hindi ko matandaan, wag lumabas. At nangyari nga yun. Ung mga hindi ko nabasa at ung mga numbers hindi masyadong lumabas. Hahahaha! Pero syempre marami pa rin ang mahirap na tanong, But thank God for everything. I felt good while taking the exam, not like last year where I always cry after the exam.

On the day of releasing the results, my heart was pounding to death. To the point that I cleaned our room thoroughly, washed the dishes, cleaned the house and cleaned the house, just to forget the feeling and the thought that the results will come out anytime. I also turned my phone on silent mode. So come, evening when I received two messages in my phone. I was so nervous to read it. The messages would either say “Congratulations” or “Ok lang yan ate, may next yr pa.” When I opened it, it says: “Congratulations!!!!!!” I almost cried. My mom was sewing at that time, and she felt excited. “Buksan niyo ang computer at maginternet ka. Check mo.” So I checked. And since many people are online, the PRC website is so slow. so I tried to google myself. And there it is, I saw my name. Nasabi ko na lang, “totoo nga. pang 159 ako. (alphabetical kasi. Di ko pa alam ranking ko.hahahaha) everyone’s excited.

This is the best birthday gift and Christmas gift! I’m so happy! Prayer works! J

time flies...sooooo fast!

there's no such thing as failure, only delayed success. :)

trust in the Lord with all your heart,

and lean not on your understanding.

in all your ways acknowledge Him,

and He will make your paths straight. :)

Ba-na-na-na!

i can do this!!! be back by August! :D wish me luck...and may all the positive vibes, energy, etc be with me on august 1, 2 and 3.

Rock on! hehehehe. :D

My March!

March is about to end. Though I don’t have a job anymore, I think my March was very productive. So far, so good.

I got some good rest.

I am relaxed.

I learned how to drive. I’m my mom’s driver by April.

I got to fix my place, arrange some readings and books.

I became a ninang again.

I get to watch good shows on tv.

I colored my hair.

So far, I think I really achieved the driving part hahaha! After taking driving lessons 6hrs for 3 days, finally I can drive our car already. I drove my mom to her dentist in Fairview. The next day, I drove her to Divisoria, UP Diliman, then I told her to drive from UP to shopwise libis because I’m sleepy! Hahaha But from shopwise to home, I drove. So far, so good. I just need more practice and a lot of confidence.

Since hair coloring had become a fad during my highschool days. I thought about it doing in college, but changed my mind because it was expensive done in parlors. But then, since my mom bought a hair colorant, I asked her to also include me. Hahahaha. Siya magbabayad eh. Hehehe. We bought at Mercury Drug in Philcoa. I tried the burgundy. So my hair is burgundy daw. Hahahaha. I like it though, maybe I’ll soon try the blue back or something that will make my hair lighter. Red? Golden…whatever.

I am enjoying my March, because by April I have to be serious and be prepared. I’ve been preparing for this. I’m excited but at the same time nervous. And all I have to do is to think positive! I know I can do this!

This is it Zeny Diana!

God Bless Earth.

the news is so sad. :(

Saying Goodbye

is the saddest and hardest thing to say. whether to someone special, family, friends, and WORK!

(click to enlarge :D)

Kahapon ang huling araw ko sa una kong trabaho, na kahit hindi related sa tinapos ko, e masasabi kong nakatulong sa akin sa maraming aspeto ng buhay ko.

Matagal ko ng hinihintay to, pero kahapon nung ina-announce sa room na last day ko na, sa harap ng mga kaibigan ko, hay!!! Ang saaaaaaaaaad! Gusto kong umiyak. Kahit papano, napamahal din saken ang KA. Binigyan pa ko ng boss ko ng “farewell” gift. Akala ko picture frame lang siya, cute yung frame, I said thank you syempre, pero nung uwian habang naglalakad na kami pauwi tinanggal ng katrabaho ko sa paper bag, at dun ko nakita na may ZENY. Pinapersonalized pa nila. Lalo tuloy akong nalungkot.

Dapat walang regrets. I’m doing this for myself. I need to fix everything in my life. My priorities and myself. Kahit na malungkot talaga, at alam kong wala na kong trabaho at wala na kong babalikan, still I will take that risk. Ipapasa ko muna yun. Bahala na sa susunod. Hehehe.

I will surely miss KA. Thank you.

PS: Kahapon, kahit papano masaya pa rin. Kasi my friend, is 4 months pregnant! Oha, san ka pa? Pasabog siya eh. At tinago niya yun, kahit halatang lumulobo siya. hehehehe

We're Two!

(click to enlarge...kung gusto niyo lang)

Yesterday (feb. 20, 2011) me and my sweetness celebrated our anniversary! we're soooo happy! we first planned to go to moa, pero dahil nagtitipid kaming dalawa, we've just decided to stay at our house. i cooked lunch for him. buttered garlic shrimp, he loved it. he bought a palabok and siomai (because it was my request!) at un din daw ang gift niya sken. on the other hand, i gave him a card made by ehem, ehem! me!! i tried my best in drawing those animals, with a japanese book as a guide. hahaha. he liked it, and i think kinilig siya! hahaha. and because we're at home, we watched the cable and he did some typing for his school!

it was worth it! walang gastos, pero masaya kasi kasama mo ang mahal mo. tama? TAMA!

Wedding Videos

they made me cry!

and i wish Jason Magbanua will be the one to videograph my wedding in the future. hahahahaha. kung may pera.


weddings. its every girls dream to have a wedding that they will truly remember.

i already watched Tuesday Vargas sweet wedding video, the ever controversial Maggie Wilson's pre-nup video, just a while ago Roxanne Guinoo's wedding video, and now im in the website of Jason Magbanua, watching the other wedding videos. Watching those videos, just put goosebumps all over my body and i want to cry.

i know i already blog about weddings in my tumblr account. How i want my dream wedding to come true, though i don't know if we can afford it.

so, ano ba ang dream wedding ko? gusto ko sa beach. para dun na din ang reception. :) i just want it to be sweet and solemn and romantic siyempre.

CUT!

Valentines 2011.

Ah Okay? Isa nanamang kwentong MRT at makabagbag damdaming Valentines 2011!

Valentines kahapon. Lunes. Alas-siete ng umaga. Inaasahan kong dagsaan nanaman ang tao sa MRT, pero mali ako! Namamalik-mata ba ko? Walang mahabang pila at walang siksikan sa tren. Ayos! Maaga akong makakapasok. Akala ko, nag-leave ang mga tao sa opisina para makipag-date.

Ako, wala akong date sa umaga. Kasi ang boyfriend ko ay may “trabaho”. Pero sabi ng nanay ko, magdate daw kaming tatlo: ako, si mommy at si macy. After na ng trabaho yun.

Mapapansin mong lahat ng tao, ay mukhang in-lab in-lab sa isa’t isa pero nung nakaraan lang nag-away. Hahahaha. May mga mag-jowang akala mo sila lang ang tao sa mundo. Ang sweet. Kulang na lang itlog at pwede na silang iluto parang tikoy. At syempre mawawala ba ang mga mag-jowang pareho ang suot. Show me some love.

Sina manong at manang busy sa pagtitinda ng mga rosas at kung anu-ano pa na pwedeng pagkakitaan sa valentines. At ang facebook ko ay puno ng mga larawan ng bulaklak at tsokolate na binigay ng mga boyfriend nila. Sweet noh?

Maiinggit ba ko? Sa totoo lang, di masyado. Hahaha. Hindi ako impokrita noh. Pero naisip ko na sana kasama ko ang sweetness ko. Sa totoo lang ni minsan, hindi ako binigyan ng bulaklak ng bf ko. Gusto ko siyang tanungin, pero nahihiya ako. Ayiiii!  At ni minsan hindi kami nag-date ng Valentines. Kuripot din kasi ako, at siya naman…ah…kuripot din. Hahaha. Pero pag birthday, pasko at anniversary naman ay may regalo siya saken. Hindi mamahalin, pero alam kong effort kung effort naman siya. Saka kung ano lang ang kaya niya, dun lang siya.

Naisip ko din na sa halip na bulaklak eh, pagkain na lang…gaya ng French fries ng KFC. Gusting gusto ko yun. O kaya cheeseroll sa Mary Grace. O kaya pizza! Hahaha. (Nagutom ako dun ah!)

Natanong ko din sa sarili ko, kung baket tuwing valentines eh, lumalabas ang mga langgam sa katawan ng tao at sweet na sweet sila. Pwede naming araw-araw valentines. Pero pinagdasal ko na sana, gawin nilang national holiday yun, para walang pasok. Mas masaya yun di ba?

Masaya din naman ang valentines ko. Sa trabaho binigyan ako, mali kaming lahat pala, ng tsokolate ni Charlene, meiji, na ang sarap sarap. Pero hindi ko pa rin siya ubos hanggang ngayon. At nagbigay din si Ken (Hapon siya) ng tsokolate sa aming lahat. At take note: Patchi. Sabi pa niya kay Marie, na mahal yun. Akala namin nasa 50 ang isa, pero sabi ng kapatid ko ayon sa kanyang reliable source, mga nasa 200 ang isa. Ganun kamahal. Napa-whoa na lang ako. At parang gusto kong iluwa kasi ginto yun. Pero ang sarap sarap niya. O di ba ang sweet nila.

Ako walang binigay, kasi ngayon pa lang ang sweldo. Hahahaha.

Alas singko ng hapon. Uwian na! Dahil nga walang masyadong tao nung umaga, akala ko ganun din sa hapon. Pero mali ako!!! Maaga pa, pero yung tao dagsaan. Buti na lang at nakapasok pa kami sa platform. Madaming tao ang humahabol sa date nila. Kahit yung mga hing naman taga- QC pupuntang trinoma para…ewan. Makipagdate. Sa unang tren na dumating, hindi kami nakasakay. May mga estudyante kasi, magkakaibigan, ang pupuntang trinoma. Valentines, may dahilan para maglakwatsa. Pero ayaw nilang maghihiwa-hiwalay para makasakay ng tren at para mabawasan ang tao. Kaya ang resulta, naunahan namin pa silang sumakay (2 kami ng katrabaho ko). Akala nila, luluwag un, pero I doubt. MRT pa. Dahil nga nagtutulakan, yung isang estudyante, napasigaw ng…”aray! Ang b***s ko.” Hehehehe. Naipit siguro. Hay. Ganun talaga sa MRT. May nakasabay naman ako, nabuksan ang botones ng blusa niya, dahil siksikan at nag-gitgitan.

Balik tayo sa mga estudyante. Makakasakay na kasi ang ilan sa kanila, pero lalabas ulit kasi yung iba nilang kasama hindi nakasakay. So may papalit na ilan. True friendship daw yun.

Eto pa, si kuya, nakapasok sa mga babae. Isa siyang binabae na may shadow ng bigote. Naisip ko, buti pa siya nasa loob na ng tren. Hehehe.

At eto pa, may mag-jowa sa tren para sa mga babae. Hindi sila lesbo. Babae at lalaki talaga. Sa isip ko ang kapal naman ng mukha nung lalaki at pinilit niya talaga na dun siya sasakay. At naisip ko din na baka, buntis yung jowa niya. Ang sweet nga nila. Sinuotan pa ng babae ng kwintas yung jowa niya.

May mga taong hindi talaga sumusunod sa batas o sa simpleng paalala. Baket nga ba, nagkaroon ng segregation scheme sa MRT? Kasi may mga lalakeng maniyak. Yun ang realidad. Naranasan ko na yun eh. Hindi  naman yun nilagay para sabihin na espesyal ang babae at dapat silang bigyan ng sariling tren na kanila lang. At kung hindi tayo marunong sumunod, hindi talaga uunlad ang Pilipinas. May overpass na nga, tatawid pa rin kung saan gusting tumawid. Pag nasagasaan, sila pa ang galit. Tama! (may galit ka, ‘te?)

Nakarating din ako ng trinoma. Kumain muna kami ni mommy sa breadtalk habang hinihintay si Macy. Sarap ng standard sausage bread nila at Hawaiian pizza at Singapore coffee. As usual, ang daming tao. Parang akala mo may 70%off na sale.Ang dami kong nakitang may dalang bulaklak. Yung iba halatang mamahalin, yung iba halatang…may mabili lang. hahaha. Masabi lang na may pagbibigyan sila ng rosas.

At sa wakes, dumating na rin ang kapatid ko. At nag-dinner na kami sa Abe. Ang sarap-sarap. Tamad kasi akong magluto, kaya mas gusto ko pag kumakain sa labas.

At para sa kabuuan, masasabi ko na masaya ang valentines ko. At ang valentines ay hindi lang para sa mag-jowa. Para ito sa pamilya, kaibigan, alagang hayop, at para sa sarili. Love yourself first!

Happy Valentines again! (para sa mga nasa ibang bansa, Valentines pa lang sa Amerika eh).

Kwentong MRT at iba pa

babala: ang blog post na ito ay opinion ko lang. pasensya na kung may natamaan, di ko sinasadya. May freedom of expression naman tayo di ba? at saka, blog ko ito. wala ngang nagbabasa or bumibisita sa blog ko na to. Mabuhay ka Pinas!

Proud akong Pinoy ako, pero minsan hindi maiiwasan na magtaka ka, kung bakit may mga taong di marunong umintindi.

Linggo, sa mrt. Kaunti lang naman ang tao, di naman kelangan mag madali. Sa may hagdanan ako galing, samantala ang babaeng nasa likod ko ay sa elevator galing. Kasagsagan nun ng kamakailan lang na pagsabog ng bus sa may Ayala-Edsa. Natural lang na maging alerto ang mga guards ng mga publikong lugar. Matagal ang inspeksyon, at hindi makapag hintay ang babae sa likod ko.  Para pa siyang nagreklamo na bakit ang tagal at ang bagal.

Nung oras na yun, gusto kong sabihin na, “ate, anong gusto mo, makapasok ka agad pero na bomba naman ang sinasakyan mo, o ang makasiguro na ligtas ka.” Slowly but surely. Napa-hay na lang ako.

Kung ako ang tatanungin, mas gugustuhin ko pa na halungkatin ng guard at bomb-sniffing dog ang bag ko para lang makasiguro na ligtas ako.

Sa panahon ngayon, hindi na ko sigurado sa mga tao sa paligid ko. Bago umalis ng bahay nun, sabi ng nanay ko na mag-ingat ako sa pangit at mga kaduda-dudang mukha. Pero hindi sa lahat ng oras dapat ganun. Aminado akong hindi ako maganda, kaya naisip ko na baka ganun din ang tingin  nila saken. Masakit di ba? Kaya mas pipiliin ko pang, halungkatin nila ang bag ko. Ilang segundo or minuto lang ba yun? Hindi tatagal yun ng 3 minuto.

Hindi kagaya ng MRT and Airport na may x-ray scanning machine na makikita nila ang loob ng bag mo, at hindi sila gagamit ng stick na masabi lang na naipasok yun sa bag.

Naisip ko din, na mabuting itaas ang singil sa MRT. Para madagdagan ang tren, at maging kasinghaba na ito ng platform ng bawat istasyon. Kung hahaba ito, malamang ay walang siksikan pag rush hour.

Ang tanong lang, magagawa kaya nila ito?

Isa pang insidente sa MRT. Nag-aabang na ako ng tren sa may Ayala. Hindi naman ganoon kadami ang tao. Pagdating ng tren, bumaba ang madaming turista. Siguro ay sinubukan nilang sumakay ng MRT. Madami silang bumaba. Ang sabi ng isang babae sa likod ko ay, ‘may audition ba ng American Idol dito. Walang American Idol dito’. Pabiro lang naman niyang sinabi yun sa kaibigan niya. Pero dinig naming lahat.

Nakakapagtaka lang na kelangan pa niyang iparinig sa iba. Kahit hindi naintidihan yun nung mga turista, sa tingin ko ay hindi nararapat yun.

Samantalang tayong mga pinoy, pag may nasabi tungkol sa atin ang iba, racist na ang bansag natin sa kanila, at nagagalit tayo.

Ayon sa aking nakausap, tayo daw ang isang numero unong racist sa kapwa tao natin. Tayong mga pinoy, mahilig manlait. Sa damit, sapatos, buhok, kuko, daliri, ngipin, balat at kung anu-ano pa. Tama ba? Nung una, hindi ako sang-ayon pero pag minulat mo ang isipan mo, ang masasabi mo na lang ay tama.

Ako man ay guilty, inaasar ko ang kapatid kong baboy kasi mataba siya. At inaasar niya kong baba, kasi mahaba ang baba ko. O di ba, halimbawa un ng racism. Pag may nakita akong babaeng puno ng tighawat nilalait ko siya.

Kaya dapat ihinto ang ganun kaugalian. Sabi sa BDJ planner ko, “I will always try to focus on people’s good points.” Tama!

Kaya tama na ang negativity, at dapat puro positivity na lang.

Proud pa rin akong Pinoy ako. Aprubado na nga ang petisyon ko papuntang Amerika, pero nagdadalawang isip ako. Mas gusto ko pa rin ang Pilipinas. At Mahal ko ang Pilipinas dahil Pinoy ako. Kung pupunta man ako sa ibang bansa, yun ay dahil nagbabakasyon ako. :)

Sa susunod, ikukwento ko ang mga nakakatawang experiences ko sa MRT.

“Dahil rush hour at siksikan, lahat ng babae nagkakagulo na makapasok sa paparating na tren, di na ko kelangan maglakad, at voila! Nasa loob na ko ng tren. :)”

My Man

Warning! This is cheesy-overload. hahahaha

since valentines day is next monday and our 2nd anniversary is on next sunday, i thought that i might blogged something about my boyfriend. i haven't blogged about him after the 'it striked me...finally' and 'the man'. I tried writing it like a love story or a biography, but i was lazy in doing that because i'm at work and i just cant think. don't ask me why.

let's start from the beginning.

I'm Zeny Diana, i was in my 6th year in college. I am a no-boyfriend-since-birth woman. hahaha. so that makes me a hopeless romantic woman. I have a huge crush in one of my schoolmates and was hoping we could be friends, but scrap that out. he doesn't like me. an acquaintance told me likes pretty girls with curly hair...and my hair is a freakin' thick wavy hair. so yeah, im dump.

anyway, it was our ojt days at that time. we go to different clinics and farms to learn and gain experiences that we can use in the future. we're done in 3 clinics for small animal practice and 1 large animal practice for equine. the next farm is the farm that, how will i say it, it's nice but i don't like it. we will stay there for weeks.

do we have a choice. by the way, we are a group of four. they treat us like shit. we sleep in dungeon-like room. it's dirty and smelly. and weird. But little did i know, that in that place i will meet the man i've been waiting for 8 years of my life (since i was eighteen, because if i say 'i've-been-waiting-for-all-my-life' is not real...since i we're a fetus?? is it a joke?).

our duty is from tuesday to saturday because monday is university day meaning we have classes.

on monday morning before going to school, i packed my stuffs. clothes, check; sleeping mattress, check; blanket, check; slippers, check; bathroom needs, check; whatever...check!

while in the car, i feel its the worst day of my life. just hearing stories from my other classmates, makes things worse. finally i arrived in front of my classmates apartment. I just left all my things in their apartment and headed to our class. our class at that time is upto 12pm only. to make it short, we ate our lunch, slept in the apartment, drank a shot glass of gran matador, and sleep again, took a bath and went to the grocery to buy food and etc. then went back to the apartment to get our stuffs, and i wore my sleeping wear already and headed to the farm.

we arrived there around 8pm. when we entered the farm, i saw him already, but i was not in the mood to look at everybody or stay there for long, or whatever. we took a bath again (biosecurity) and slept. we have to be in the farm by 6:30 am.

we woke up around 4:30 am to eat breakfast and prepare. at exactly 6:30am we went inside the farm. there i saw him. but it wasn't a love-at-first sight thing. i thought he was one of the workers in the farm. he was wearing ragged clothes, but i told myself he was cute.

while cleaning the pig sty, the supervisor suddenly called me because i will castrate the piglets. she said im with someone. i asked who, and she said the other students. when we arrived at the pen, there i saw him, waiting.

at first, both of us we're not talking. until he breaks his silence and asks me some questions and my name of course. he's nice. i liked him on that week, but i feel he doesn't like me. one week is over. the second week, was still the same, except that he asked for my number. two weeks is over.

to be continued... hahaha.

(i've got to get ready to go home.)

Feb 13, 2011

After he got my number, I think he was disappointed. Why? because we use different networks. During that time, unlimited calls and texts boomed. So if we use different networks, the messages we're limited. One of his friends uses globe, so thats how he texted me. After two weeks, we returned to our normal lives. school, ojt's etc. i thought he wouldn't text me again, but he did. he changed his network. hahahahaha. sweet no? nagulat talaga ako.

to sum it up, we became "textmates". araw araw text kung text. :) nung time na yun hindi ko alam kung nanliligaw siya or what. until, one day, i texted him. i told him frankly, "nanliligaw ka ba?" nakalimutan ko na yung sagot nya. basta ang sabi niya "pwede ba?" without hesitation, i said YES! pero sa isip-isip ko, gusto ko na siya. pero sige try natin kung pano siya manligaw.

and because of the distance between us, i live in QC and he lives in bulacan plus there's so much to do in school, nanligaw na lang siya thru call and text. you may think, its pathetic, or cheap, or whatever, but for me, its genuine. i really like him, from the first encounter, but i wouldn't call it love at first sight.

i was in bataan having fun with friends. he texted me the three words, that all girls would love to hear from someone who makes their hearts beat faster, I LOVE YOU! then he called, and said it again... and yes, i said I LOVE YOU TOO!

We've only known each other for a month, and technically he just courted me for 2 weeks. hahahaha. and now we're going on 2...TWO YEARS! and in those days, i can say that, I LOVE HIM and i know the he loves me too. i know, that God gave him to me. he's not really my dream guy, he's actually the opposite, but for me HE's THE ONE! for real!

being with him is the happiest day of my life. I'm lucky to have him, as a friend, bestfriend and boyfriend, and someday my husband! hahahahaha.

oopps! i forgot to introduce him.

I'd like you to meet: Delson Delos Santos.

I LOVE YOU SWEETNESS! HAPPY VALENTINES AND HAPPY 2ND ANNIVERSARY! :)

queso!

My 25th birthday...

with family and boyfriend! somewhere in MOA last 10-24-2010

Official

last time I blogged about my mind being torn to resigning or just take a leave. guess what? I RESIGNED! haha. and I'm officially outta here by February 28.

the feeling is a mixture of sadness and yeheys, but there is definitely no regrets.

i know i made the right decision.

so yeah! hello student world again! :)

what now?

i was typing from google "the best way to resign", and came across  "How to Resign from Jobs" (http://www.ehow.com/how-to_4845410_resign-from-jobs.html). this part i find interesting:

Those who resign from their jobs usually fall into one of two categories.

* You're changing your career path. You want to change your job completely (say, from a paralegal to a stand-up comic).

* You're escaping an unhappy environment. This can be anything from an insensitive boss to poor advancement opportunities to just not liking the commute. Sometimes people in this situation aren't particularly looking for a new job, but they receive an offer from a different company that can give them a better deal (be it through salary, benefits, more interesting tasks or some other perk)

you see, i haven't filed or submitted a resignation letter to my boss, because she hates it when she receives one. especially now that one-by-one her employees are starting to go...somewhere. so when i talked to her about leaving the company because i need to study for 5 months, we had an agreement that she will allow me to have an indefinite leave, since she really knew what i'm talking about. i don't know if i made the right decision. since, at that time...my brain isn't working normally. i am stressed of the travelling (the mrt part i think), im not enjoying what i'm doing (i'm not a don't belong here, really for heaven's sake), but at the same time i needed money. I'm not HAPPY in short.

i fall in both categories.

i want to change my career path because i realized what i really wanted to do. that this is only a stop-over. an experience for me to find where my happiness is and a realization that i should just stick to my dreams, fulfill it and live it.

the second category, said it all. i think this is an unhappy environment for me. it's like i'm lost and found this environment and i'm trying to be like them. i am a veterinarian, but i'm working with teachers. though i wanted to teach somehow, i just don't fit. the puzzle pieces doesn't fit. and yes, the commute. i hate it now unlike before. i was excited to ride the mrt before because it was my first time...but now, i hate it. hahahaha. everyday i have to be squished just to get my bag inspected by a guard who will just look inside for 1 second, and i stayed on the line for nearly 30 mins., lastly the train is always JAMPACKED! like sardines...not to mention that the hair of the girl in front of me, is on my face already. its soooo stressful.

i'm exhausted. tired. emotionally...stressed? i totally needed a break.

going back to the verbal agreement we had, i will have my 6 months "vacation" (without pay), and i have to return back by august.

by that time, i still don't know. but definitely...i wanted a change.

i suck when it comes to decision making. i wanted to resign...but...

see i can't decide.

this is the part of the article that struck me:

2. Counteroffers. It is likely that your boss will accept your resignation in a calm and professional manner. He may even try to keep you around with an attractive counteroffer. Our advice: Turn it down. It doesn't matter how good it is; chances are, it will hurt you in the long run. In the eyes of the company, the fact that you offered a resignation makes you a disloyal employee. Should any cuts need to be made, your name will likely be at the top of the list. Accepting a counteroffer also makes you appear indecisive. It doesn't help your reputation with the company you were planning to go to, either.

Read more: Give Your Oral and Written Resignation http://www.ehow.com/how-to_4845410_2_resign-from-jobs.html#ixzz1CDuygupF

what? they offered me a job after august. i can come back after being out for 6 months (at the back of my mind, i don't want to go back). is that a counteroffers?


now it made me realized, that i should have turn it down. is it too late? i will be leaving by the end of february.
maybe i should pass a resignation letter. the question is when?


let's find out by August.

During the Holidays!